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Photoshop contests on reddit. A place to battle using image manipulation software, play photoshop tennis, create new images from old photos, or even win reddit gold.
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2010.09.29 13:08 thielmann LibreOffice discussions, help, tips and updates

LibreOffice is a free and open source office suite used by millions of people around the world. It's a successor project to OpenOffice(.org) with regular releases, extra features, and improved compatibility (.docx export). Here you can ask questions to other users, and talk about LibreOffice, The Documentation Foundation and the Free Software productivity community
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2011.04.09 09:34 oneisnotprime Blockchain built and run by the EOS network DAO

The EOS Network is a 3rd generation blockchain platform powered by the EOS VM, a low-latency, highly performant, and extensible WebAssembly engine for deterministic execution of near feeless transactions; purpose-built for enabling optimal web3 user, developer experiences. EOS is the flagship blockchain and financial center of the EOSIO protocol, serving as the driving force behind multi-chain collaboration and public goods funding for tools and infrastructure through the EOS Network Foundation.
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2023.03.21 08:28 bordenttl 23 [F4M] USA - Bored? Me too!

Lets chat, flirt or anything lol. I am dead bored
I am from united states and 23 year old anyway. If that matters lol. Well.. I am bored these days!
About me: I'm in business school and I work as a shop manager on the side. I like shopping, going out for dinner and drinks, reading, art, gaming a little, working out and game night with friends.
I don't care if our hobby's match, Lets go ahead and have some fun! We can start online with sharing our private photos and may be some cam calls? Lets see where it goes?
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2023.03.21 08:27 Ordinary_Argument_66 Best Laptop for Business

Hey, I'm looking to purchase a new laptop to run my online business, and I need some advice.
I'm looking for a PC that can handle running multiple programs and applications simultaneously, without any lag. I will not play any games so I don't need a great GPU. Also, I'm open to purchasing a refurbished PC if that helps me stay within my budget.
My price range is below $1000 (refurbished), so any recommendations within that range would be greatly appreciated.
Thanks in advance for your help!
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2023.03.21 08:27 ConversationFew5997 Don’t wanna start arguments just input, which Jeep is more reliable and overall better the Tj or Jk?

I’m looking to buy a Jeep with a budget around 15k. I been seeing lower year like 07-2013 Jks in that price range with mileage up to 150k. And I’ve also been seeing Tjs about the same price and mileage. My main concern is buying a 20 year old car (the tj) and having it in the shop every other month. Im gonna daily whatever I decide to buy, to school and back and use it as a weekender. Any input on which model is better suited for me?
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2023.03.21 08:27 ThrowRAaccoconut I(F34) feel my unfortunate job situation is stressing my husband(M36) out and I'm not sure what can I do.

Sorry if this comes out a bit rambly,
My husband and I have been together for almost twenty years now. We dated in High School, got married in our early 20s and have two beautiful daughters. Throught it all we've stayed very much in love and until now had a very healthy marriage.
My job situation on the other hand has been a rocky road. I've always had a job but its not until recently that I got something that pays very well. Working as an office manager and personal assistant to one of my old students from my college teacher days.
I barely even remember him and I didn't find out he'd be my boss until I got the job as the person who interviewed me was somebody else. He does remember me and said that when he found out I applied for the job he pushed to make sure I'd get it.
So here's the problems or well problems.
He has an annoying way of addressing women(always slipping ''mi vida'' y ''amor'') which for context I guess woud be like English guys who call women he's friendly with ''love'' all the darn time. I've tried addressing it but he keeps defaulting to it and defends himself as saying that's just how he talks but I notice that he doesn't use it with all the women in the office. As far as I can tell only me and two young women in their early 20s have to put up with it.HR is non-existent so I have nobody else to submit a complaint too.
He has a colorful dating past, including dating co-workers and is actually proud of it. Not to mention for a guy in his late 20s still comes off as very impulsive and lacks tact.
The job involves travelling as its basically a specialized call center and he travels around to meet new prospective clients, attend conferences, catch up current clients and checking on a sister company in a different city. I've already had to travel with him but it was a short trip and didn't have to spend the night in a hotel. The longer ones to the US are planned for later this year and one will involve a 10-day stay in Miami.
My husband understands we need the income, understands I'd never be unfaithful, and understands I'll jump to something else as soon as I can but this hasn't stopped him from feeling anxious over the whole thing.
I tell him everything and stuff like my boss saying I'm a proper woman and the type you don't find anymore makes him cringe. When I had to travel with my boss, my husband was constantly texted me, and even called me late at night. I told him he had nothing to worry about but he told me he couldn't help it. That he hates that I'm stuck sharing an office with some young guy who got lucky in life and maybe(or maybe not) is attracted to me. That when I turned down the job at first because they wouldn't meet the salary I requested just for them to call back an hour later to say they'd do it was his doing and might have been less about my competency and more about getting the ego boost of having me work for him makes my husband angry.
I admit it does makes me sad that my best paying job is working under somebody younger and somebody I used to teach. The awkward tension just makes it worse.
We're in debt as we took out a loan to open a business that didn't pan out, we're paying for our girls to go through an expensive private school and help out our parents so quitting the job is not an option. My husband has never even suggested it but the way he always asks me how my day was I can tell its eating at him.
I'm not sure when can I do besides constant texting through out the day to appease him. My boss right now even has a girl friend. Its just how he talks, his past and the upcoming long trips together that are needling at my partner.
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2023.03.21 08:27 strwbryfanta Social Anxiety

I hate having social anxiety. For a week, I was on a vacation in Mexico with my family. In that week, my class read all of the book “Night” and completed all the projects with it. The day I went back to the class, I was already stressed from not having any of the projects started. And of course on that day, everyone was performing the poems they had memorized. I was panicked. I had ten minutes to memorize the poem I was assigned while I was gone. I did what I could with the ten minutes, then the performing began. Some performed in partners or trios, and some solo. I had to perform solo. A girl started presenting her poem and I remember my chest immediately tightening and my breathing turned shallow. The girl was performing the poem I had memorized. I realized then that I had memorized the wrong poem. There was nothing I could do about it, since I was up not long after. My anxiety was eating me alive. I already didn’t know all but two of my classmates there, and the rest were friends with each other while I wasn’t. The staring definitely didn’t help. I could barely stutter in a flustered tone that I had memorized the wrong poem by accident. The teacher said it was fine, and so I began. Immediately my palms began to sweat and my eyes shifted all over the room, trying to avoid all the staring. My voice was barely steady as I began reciting the poem, and it only got worse as I went on. I started shaking intensely and at a point I stumbled over my words and paused. By then I had already started to sob, and my voice was completely wrecked. I remember raising a hand in front of me to somehow “steady” myself and placing a hand over my quickly beating heart. I could barely go on, and everyone watched silently. I know it was out of sympathetic pity, but it still hurt. My social anxiety limits me socially. I think everyone is constantly judging me. And in that room with everyone staring at me while I stood and sobbed in front of them, I felt so pathetic. I managed to finally spit out the last line, and I clearly remember the words. It was so difficult for me to even spit them out, so I pronounced them with a punch. “…dirty, empty hearse.” After I was finished (I was the last to perform because my teacher had forgotten I was even in the class, so nice to know) the teacher thanked the class for being so “respectful and considerate” and I couldn’t help but feel miserable. I wanted to simply disappear and never return to that class. For weeks after, I dreaded every day I had that class. I would try to weasel out of it by having my appointments scheduled during that period, or simply staying home due to “illness.” The point of this is, I hate having to feel so fearful of performing normal social tasks. I hope that someday in everyones lives they can reach a point where they feel truly comfortable being open.
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2023.03.21 08:26 Ordinary_Argument_66 Best Laptop for Business

Hey, I'm looking to purchase a new laptop to run my online business, and I need some advice.
I'm looking for a PC that can handle running multiple programs and applications simultaneously, without any lag. I will not play any games so I don't need a great GPU. Also, I'm open to purchasing a refurbished PC if that helps me stay within my budget.
My price range is below $1000 (refurbished), so any recommendations within that range would be greatly appreciated.
Thanks in advance for your help!
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2023.03.21 08:26 Old-Drawing-8 Cse 121 grade

Guys I messed up my 121 grade by getting 2 Ns on P3. I am expecting to get 3 - 3.4. This really hurts me because I have near 4.0s/4.0s in all my other required courses. I am applying for ACMS later this year. Should I try to remove this grade from my transcript or let it be and get good grades in 122 n 123. I just want to get a perspective on how this low grade can potentially impact my application. I will be thankful for any advice.
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2023.03.21 08:26 ConversationFew5997 Don’t wanna start arguments just input, which Jeep is more reliable and overall better the Tj or Jk?

I’m looking to buy a Jeep with a budget around 15k. I been seeing lower year like 07-2013 Jks in that price range with mileage up to 150k. And I’ve also been seeing Tjs about the same price and mileage. My main concern is buying a 20 year old car (the tj) and having it in the shop every other month. Im gonna daily whatever I decide to buy, to school and back and use it as a weekender. Any input on which model is better suited for me?
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2023.03.21 08:26 realvicandy Is getting a CS degree and becoming a programmer worth it in 2023 with Chat-GPT4?

I know this question has been asked a lot, but honestly, some of the responses feel like they were typed by Chat-GPT I.e. bot responses (forgive my bad joke).
I’m getting my CS degree and having a ton of fun with it and I’m really excited to be a programmer.
I just want to make sure that I will still have a job and not be professionally displaced in 20+ years. Then having to go learn a trade or something from scratch to be able to support my family.
My mind says either stick with the CS and programming, or ditch it early (which would make me sad bc it is a lot of fun for me) and learn a trade now so I can rack up the experience.
Twitter is going HAM right now on this topic, and it seems like everyone on there thinks everything in media and tech will be replaced by ML/AI in the near future.
I feel like this might just be a hype train and tons of wanna be influencers are jumping at the opportunity to write something they have little knowledge of.
That is why I ask that only experienced CS/IT professionals respond to this with their honest opinions.
All other people who don’t have 5+ years experience in the tech field, in a technical role, sit this one out with me.
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2023.03.21 08:26 ConversationFew5997 Don’t wanna start arguments just input, which Jeep is more reliable and overall better the Tj or Jk?

I’m looking to buy a Jeep with a budget around 15k. I been seeing lower year like 07-2013 Jks in that price range with mileage up to 150k. And I’ve also been seeing Tjs about the same price and mileage. My main concern is buying a 20 year old car (the tj) and having it in the shop every other month. Im gonna daily whatever I decide to buy, to school and back and use it as a weekender. Any input on which model is better suited for me?
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2023.03.21 08:26 Renofsins Anonymous not so Anonymous

Hi..
I won’t lie, my will to live has always been a struggle… growing up poor with a single mother & two other siblings, then being separated because she worked all the time, witnessing my dad physically abuse my mother & then abandoning us, being sexually abused as a child by a family member, at age 11/12 being bullied for being the quiet & ‘ugly/fat’ one in class..My life started to fall apart as a teenageyoung adult, constantly assaulted by neighbors, almost failing school, I did not get along with my mother or siblings, I abused alcohol & drugs, was not the best person, lost friends, lost touch with reality for a while…I didn’t see a point in continuing to suffer…then one day I fell in love & hard, I thought I was cured until I found myself living a delusional life for years. I was so in love but also aware & I still chose to keep it going, A GIRL CAN ALWAYS DREAM RIGHT?. I came to grow bitter & an ugly side of me was created, I never want to see that side again.( I hope all whores involved in making me crazy are happy with themselves hehe). Having this idea & a wish for something that had no good intentions broke me & I was back to square one. Whether what I had was real at some point or not, I will never truly know. Life was not all bad all the time but somehow the bad ALWAYS WON. That was also my mentality. Now my head feels clear & I want to live (I still make jokes about dying though so excuse me).. my heart remains open & kind but I need to continue to heal little by little..I will get there. I am gaining my self love once again & also coming to terms with a lot of things that will never happen & that is okay. I have dreams & they’re taking time to achieve but I learned it’s okay if not all of them come to be, I am still determined to reach them. One thing that really helped is still having people who truly give a shit..it is honestly the most rewarding & I am eternally grateful. Those who want to be in your life will be, those who do not, will simply not. The love, kindness & realness I have received, I wish to repay it all 💕 Thank you guys🤍
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2023.03.21 08:26 grimm_demonfoxx I want to buy a used cue/cue set under $700

Hey guys, I am looking for a quality used cue under $700. I am open to a single playing cue, or a set of a playing cue and a jump break cue in the price range. Please dm me or add to comments a cue you are willing to sell. I am based in USA.
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2023.03.21 08:26 dice1899 LFMW Rebuttal, Part 9: The Early Church – The Witnesses [B]

Posts in this series (note: link will not work properly in old Reddit or 3rd-party apps): https://www.reddit.com/lds/collection/363e4ce4-8cec-40ad-8ea9-5954cf1fe52d
Last week, I briefly mentioned some of the insults and ill-treatment that have come my way because of writing these posts. One of the primary accusations made against me was that I was trying to make a name for myself. This couldn’t be further from the truth.
I have personally advertised these posts a grand total of six times: when I made my first Reddit post regarding the CES Letter, I went to a private LDS-related sub with about 30 active members and asked that if anyone had anything further they’d found, to share it in the comments of the post; when FAIR asked if they could repost them, I linked to the first one on my Facebook account and told my friends for the first time what I’d been doing for the past six months; I also mentioned when FAIR and Jennifer Roach each graciously invited me onto their podcasts; I announced this current series on Facebook; and I thanked FAIR for giving me an award at last year’s Conference, as well as all of the people who had been so supportive of me to that point. That’s it.
While I’m incredibly grateful to FAIR for giving me a wider platform and I’m very proud of the work I’ve put out, my goal was never to get attention for myself. I haven’t been searching out ways to put myself in the spotlight. I wasn’t even the one who approached FAIR; it was the other way around. In my offline life, I’m pretty shy and introverted, and attention actually makes me uncomfortable. It’s been an adjustment these past few years, with people suddenly knowing my name and recognizing my face. I don’t regret putting my real name to my writing and numerous blessings have come my way because of it. I’ve made a lot of friends, and the FAIR audience is generous and amazing and inspiring. But honestly, it hasn’t been easy and it wasn’t my intention.
I had five goals when writing the original CES Letter series:
1) To say that yes, these questions actually have been answered, and to share a few of those answers
2) To offer up a bunch of resources people could use to investigate the truth for themselves and find their own answers
3) To teach people how to evaluate sources and rank them according to their reliability and trustworthiness
4) To teach people how to study with the Spirit by their side, and
5) To point out manipulation tactics and fallacies commonly used by critics in their attacks
Ultimately, my intent was always to teach people how to maintain and grow their faith in Christ and in His restored gospel.
And you know what? Intention matters. It’s why I spent time at the beginning of each of these blog series delving into the background and prior statements of the authors whose documents we’re discussing. It’s why I give background information on some of the notable figures that come up. It’s why we need to learn how to evaluate sources in the first place.
A hostile source has a bias and an agenda. So does a friendly source, and so does a neutral source. Jeremy Runnells and Thomas Faulk have a bias and an agenda against the Church. I have a bias and an agenda in favor of the Church. You need to know that going into this material. Their intention is to tear down your faith. Mine is to build up your faith. I’ve been upfront about that right from the beginning. Have they? Because that’s information that you can use while evaluating our reliability and trustworthiness. Which of us is hiding information from you? Which of us is cutting quotes out of all context to give a false impression? Which of us is telling you to trust them, and which is telling you to trust God, the ultimate source of truth?
I’m bringing this all up because today’s topic involves accounts written by sources that need to be treated with caution. However, Thomas Faulk presents them as being completely truthful. Understanding how to evaluate sources is critical, and it’s only going to become more so as the years go by.
We all know that we can’t trust everything we read on the internet. Or, at least, we should know that. But for some reason, a lot of otherwise very smart, capable people don’t hold history books to the same standard. They need to. People make mistakes, and people have biases that aren’t always immediately clear.
You know the saying, “History was written by the winners”? That’s true. Historians have agendas, too. For a prime example of this, you don’t need to look any farther than D. Michael Quinn’s thoroughly debunked Same-Sex Dynamics Among Nineteenth-Century Americans: A Mormon Example.
In today’s chunk of the LFMW, Faulk picks up with a discussion about the Eight Witnesses:
  • The 8 Witnesses
On March 25, 1838, Martin Harris testified in public that none of the 3 or 8 witnesses saw or handled the physical plates.
That’s a mischaracterization of what we know.
After the fall of the Kirtland Safety Society bank in 1837, most of the Saints left Kirtland in early 1838. By the time this meeting occurred, a faction led by Warren Parrish had taken control of the temple with the intent, according to George A. Smith, “to renounce the Book of Mormon and Joseph Smith, and take the ‘Mormon’ doctrines to overthrow all the religions in the world, and unite all the Christian churches in one general band, and they to be its great leaders.” He also said, “One of them told me that Moses was a rascal and the Prophets were tyrants, and that Jesus Christ was a despot, Paul a base liar and all religion a fudge. And Parrish said he agreed with him in principle.”
Eventually, a growing division between the members of the faction came to a head, and they held a meeting to determine the validity of the Book of Mormon and other revelations Joseph received. This is the meeting referred to in Burnett’s letter.
I’m going to briefly skip ahead in the LFMW, just so the rest of this explanation makes sense:
A letter on Josephsmithpapers.org dated April 15, 1838, Stephen Burnett wrote the following to Lyman Johnson:
“I have reflected long and deliberately upon the history of this church and weighed the evidence for and against it — loth to give it up — but when I came to hear Martin Harris state in public that he never saw the plates with his natural eyes only in vision or imagination, neither Oliver [Cowdery] nor David [Whitmer] and also that the eight witnesses never saw them and hesitated to sign that instrument for that reason, but were persuaded to do it, the last pedestal gave way, in my view our foundations was sapped and the entire superstructure fell a heap of ruins, … I was followed by W. [Warren] Parish, Luke Johnson and John Boynton, all of who concurred with me. After we were done speaking, M[artin] Harris arose and said he was sorry for any man who rejected the Book of Mormon for he knew it was true, he said he had hefted the plates repeatedly in a box with only a tablecloth or handkerchief over them, but he never saw them only as he saw a city through a mountain. And said that he never should have told that the testimony of the eight was false, if it had not been picked out of air but should have let it passed as it was.” (http://josephsmithpapers.org/paperSummary/letterbook-2?p=69)
Burnett was a member of Parrish’s band of dissenters, and believed that Martin Harris recanted his testimony during this speech. Parrish agreed with his assessment, though George A. Smith, who was in town during the meeting, reported the opposite. He said that Harris testified in favor of the Book of Mormon’s truthfulness, and said that anyone who rejected it would be damned.
According to a Church Institute Manual handout, “Martin Harris strongly objected to how Burnett described his testimony and ‘remained a convinced Book of Mormon believer.’” The quote is taken from Richard L. Anderson’s fantastic book, Investigating the Book of Mormon Witnesses:
We are of course seeing Harris through the mind of a frustrated intermediary, one who thinks Mormonism presents a “whole scene of lying and deception.” He thinks that Martin Harris has not really seen the plates. If “only in vision,” then Burnett (not Harris) says it was really just “imagination.” If the Three Witnesses “only saw them spiritually,” then Burnett (not Harris) can explain it as essentially “in vision with their eyes shut.” But Martin Harris felt misrepresented, or he would not have stood up in the Kirtland Temple to challenge the explanations of Burnett and his disaffected associates. Note that there are two distinct experiences of Harris: (1) “he said that he had hefted the plates repeatedly in a box with only a tablecloth or handkerchief over them, but he never saw them, only as he saw a city through a mountain”; (2) “he never saw the plates with his natural eyes, only in vision.” Getting at the real Martin Harris requires subtracting Burnett’s sarcasm that seeps into the above wording. … In other words, Burnett heard Martin say that he had seen the plates in vision, and when Burnett uses “only” four times to ridicule the experience, that shows his disbelief, not Martin’s speech. Martin’s candid denial of seeing the plates while translating was sometimes exaggerated into a denial of ever seeing the plates, but even Burnett reports Martin claiming two types of contact with the plates: lifting them thinly covered, plus later seeing them in the hands of the angel. So Burnett paraphrased Martin Harris with the evident rationalizations of a skeptic. But Martin knew his own experience and remained a convinced Book of Mormon believer. Study of his interviews shows how strongly he insisted that the sight of the angel and plates was as real as the sight of the physical objects around him….
In fact, Burnett’s own letter says that when Harris realized how Burnett and others interpreted his testimony, he stood back up and testified of the Book of Mormon, them said that his previous comments had been “picked out” of him under duress.
Now, there is a slight discrepancy on what this letter actually says. The Joseph Smith Papers Project transcribes this line as “picked out of air.” However, in his Early Mormon Documents, Volume 5, Dan Vogel transcribes it as “picked out of [h]im.” When you zoom in on the text, it’s hard to tell exactly what it says. Either way, though, the point is clear that in Burnett’s own words, Harris felt like he’d been forced into making whatever statement he may have made about the Eight Witnesses.
So, since none of these are firsthand accounts from Harris himself, we have to try to judge the sources on their merits. Burnett and Parrish claim Harris said one thing, Smith felt he said something else. And, as was just pointed out, Burnett’s letter later shows Harris agreeing with Smith.
Personally, to me, it sounds like Burnett and Parrish mischaracterized the situation. Regardless of where you land on that, however, it’s obvious that the actual situation is a lot more questionable than Faulk’s proclamation makes it seem. The following sentence actually comes in between the first sentence I quoted from Faulk and the letter:
This statement caused apostles Luke S. Johnson, Lyman E. Johnson, John F. Boynton, high priest Stephen Burnett and LDS Seventy Warren Parish to leave the church.
This is factually untrue. They left the Church because of the failure of the Kirtland Safety Society. As most of the people listed in that sentence were apostles at the time, their departures from the Church are well-documented.
Luke Johnson denounced Joseph alongside Warren Parrish and many others in late 1837 and at that point resigned from the Church. He was formally excommunicated alongside his brother Lyman E. Johnson and David Whitmer on April 13, 1838.
That denunciation took place shortly after December 10, 1837. All of those listed by Faulk were among those who denounced Joseph at this time. The History of the Church had this to say about it:
I returned to Kirtland on or about the 10th of December. During my absence in Missouri Warren Parrish, John F. Boynton, Luke S. Johnson, Joseph Coe, and some others united together for the overthrow of the Church. Soon after my return this dissenting band openly and publicly renounced the Church of Christ of Latter-day Saints and claimed themselves to be the old standard, calling themselves the Church of Christ, excluding the word “Saints,” and set me at naught, and the whole Church, denouncing us as heretics, not considering that the Saints shall possess the kingdom according to the Prophet Daniel.
Remember, The History of the Church was written to sound like it was Joseph speaking, but there’s no guarantee this paragraph was actually taken from his own words. It may have been the recollection of someone else entirely that was rewritten to sound like Joseph’s voice.
John F. Boynton was excommunicated in 1837. So was Warren Parrish. In fact, between July and August of 1837, Parrish was the one who led the armed riot inside the Kirtland Temple, an incident in which Boynton participated. They were well out of the Church before that letter of Burnett’s was ever written.
The only one whose timeline of apostasy is at all murky is Stephen Burnett. Most sources just say that he apostatized “by 1838.” He was one who participated in that denunciation of Joseph in December of 1837, but it’s unclear whether he actually left the Church at this point or within the next few months of early 1838.
There was no love lost between Burnett and Joseph. In the Elder’s Journal from August 1838, Joseph described Burnett as an “little ignorant blockhead ... whose heart was so set on money that he would at any time, sell his soul for fifty dollars and then think he had made an excellent bargain; and who had got wearied of the restraints of religion, and could not bear to have his purse taxed.”
So, clearly, by the time April 1838 rolled around, Burnett and Parrish were both incredibly hostile toward the Church and particularly toward Joseph Smith. That bias has bearing on how we should view their characterization of the meeting featuring Martin Harris, just like Richard L. Anderson explained above.
And let’s not forget the words of Martin Harris himself:
[N]o man ever heard me in any way deny the truth of the Book of Mormon, the administration of the angel that showed me the plates; nor the organization of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints, under the administration of Joseph Smith Jun., the prophet the Lord raised up for that purpose, in these the latter days, that he may show forth his power and glory. The Lord has shown me these things by his Spirit–by the administration of holy angels–and confirmed the same with signs following....
A similar point was made by John Whitmer, the next Witness we’re going to discuss:
I have never heard that any one of the three or eight witnesses ever denied the testimony that they have borne to the Book as published in the first edition of the Book of Mormon. There are only two of the witnesses to that book now living, to wit., David Whitmer, one of the three, and John Wh[itmer], one of the eight. Our names have gone forth to all nations, tongues and people as a divine revelation from God. And it will bring to pass the designs of God according to the declaration therein contained.
These men were firm in their testimonies. Each one of them died still declaring their testimonies to the world.
On April 5, 1839 member of the Church, Theodore Turley, challenged John Whitmer, one of the 8 witnesses, to either affirm or deny his testimony regarding the gold plates. Whitmer responded by saying “I now say, I handled those plates ... they were shown to me by a supernatural power.” (History of the Church, vol.3 p307).
According to the 1828 Webster’s Dictionary, “supernatural” was synonymous with “miraculous” in Joseph’s day. The Witnesses appeared at various times to use the word to mean “by the power of God.”
As FAIR explains, three years before this report by Turley, John Whitmer said:
I desire to testify unto all ... that I have most assuredly seen the plates from whence the Book of Mormon [was] translated, and that I have handled these plates, and know of a surety that Joseph Smith, jr. has translated the Book of Mormon by the gift and power of God.
Then, in 1839, Turley reports Whitmer as making this statement:
Whitmer replied: ‘I now say, I handled those plates; there were fine engravings on both sides. I handled them;’ and he described how they were hung [on rings], and [said] ‘they were shown to me by a supernatural power;’ he acknowledged all.
And then, in late 1877 or early 1878, Myron Bond reported Whitmer as saying:
John Whitmer told me last winter ... [that he] ‘saw and handled’ [the plates and] ... helped to copy [the Book of Mormon manuscript] as the words fell from Joseph’s lips by supernatural or [A]lmighty power.
In each of these three statements, he declared that he both physically saw and handled the plates. Then he closed each statement by also testifying of the miraculous nature of the Book of Mormon. In the Turley incident, if it was reported accurately, he wasn’t saying that he didn’t literally see and handle the plates. He was saying that the plates themselves were miraculous. It was miraculous that Joseph received them, that he was able to translate them, and that Whitmer was allowed to see them for himself.
Again, situations like this are why we need to research these questions. If we only looked at one quote presented in a slanted manner, we wouldn’t know that this was a common pattern of Whitmer’s, and that he didn’t mean what Faulk implies he meant.
Why would a supernatural power be necessary if the plates actually existed? Couldn’t Joseph just invite the men he wanted to be witnesses over to his house, take the plates out of the box where he kept them and pass them around?
That’s exactly what was done when the Eight Witnesses saw the plates. They went into the woods to do it, but Joseph is the one who handed the plates over to them and let them hold them and turn the leaves.
The Three Witnesses were a different story, but there’s a reason why they were shown the plates by an angel. If their testimony was exactly the same as that of the Eight Witnesses, critics could claim that Joseph just manufactured the plates himself and there was nothing miraculous about it. And if all of the testimonies were like that of the Three Witnesses, they could claim that the plates never actually existed and that Joseph made the entire thing up. But this way, it’s a lot harder to account for the two different types of testimony.
Why are visions and supernatural means necessary to see these plates?
They weren’t. They are now, because the plates were returned to the Angel Moroni, but that wasn’t the case in 1829. They needed to pray for permission to see the plates, but they didn’t need to be shown them through miraculous means. The Three Witnesses were shown the plates by an angel to prove as true the Lord’s revelation that they had to see them by faith.
However, the two different types of testimony, one spiritual and one practical, make it that much harder to dismiss their testimonies. I have no doubt that was by design.
Published on Josephsmithpapers.org are the signed statements by the 3 and 8 witnesses. JosephSmithPapers reveals that both statements and all signatures are in the handwriting of Oliver Cowdery. The official statements printed in the Book of Mormon are not signed with original signatures, dated or given a specific location where the events occurred.
The only surviving full copy of the Book of Mormon manuscript is the printer’s manuscript. It’s in Oliver’s handwriting because he copied it from the original manuscript so that they’d have two copies available.
In October of 1841, Joseph put the original copy in the cornerstone of the Nauvoo House. More than 40 years later, Emma’s second husband, Lewis Bidamon, made some renovations to the house and rediscovered it. It was badly damaged by water seepage and mold, and the Witness statements were some of the most damaged because they were at the back of the original Book of Mormon, not the front. Bidamon displayed the pages and gave many away to visitors to the house. Today, only about 28% of it is still intact, and even many of those pages and fragments are damaged. Extensive efforts to conserve them have been undertaken by both the Church and the Wilford Woodruff Museum, the two places where the bulk of the remaining pages survive. Private collectors have other additional fragments.
We have one statement from John Whitmer saying he signed the original copy, and three accounts of Joseph F. Smith saying that David Whitmer said he signed it as well (here, here, and here). There’s also a fourth David Whitmer account saying that Oliver copied their names onto the printer’s manuscript. Whitmer initially believed he had the original manuscript, which had previously been in Oliver’s possession until his death, but later came to accept that he had the printer’s copy.
Aside from the John Whitmer account, these are all secondhand reports, some given several decades later. As such, they should be treated with some skepticism. But, as most of them come from a prophet, I do personally lend them some weight and consider them to be pretty solid sources.
It’s true they’re not dated, but we know approximately when the experiences happened (in June of 1829) and where they happened. The Three Witnesses were shown the plates by the angel in the woods near the Whitmer home, while a few days later, the Eight Witnesses were shown them in the woods near the Smith home in Palmyra.
It should be noted that in John Whitmer’s final interview, published after his death, the details differ from the other accounts. He’s quoted as saying that he was shown the plates inside Joseph’s home, in two groups of four rather than all at once. However, this does conflict with other accounts, and David Whitmer publicly disputed the accuracy of the interview when it was published.
These are not 11 legally sworn statements; rather it seems possible that they are simple accounts pre-written, pre-signed and agreed upon at some later time.
This is a comment ripped straight out of the CES Letter. No, these are not legally sworn statements, but who on earth ever claimed that they were? Why would anyone think that? There’s no notary information on the statement.
And obviously, the printer’s manuscript was pre-written and pre-signed, since it’s not the original manuscript. But nothing other than the content of the statement was agreed upon at a later time. They all declared repeatedly, until the end of their lives, that they experienced the things they testified in those statements that they experienced.
In addition, consider the statement by Martin Harris (one of the 3 witnesses): “…and also that the eight witnesses never saw them and hesitated to sign that instrument for that reason, but were persuaded to do it.”
And, as we covered in the beginning of this post, that statement is suspect. It’s not a direct quote, it’s a summary from a hostile source’s letter—and that same letter said that Harris disavowed this statement.
Also, it’s worth pointing out that Martin Harris was not present when the Eight Witnesses handled the plates. He didn’t know what they experienced any more than we can. All any of us has to go on is their signed statement and the other comments they made about their experiences over the years. It’s not our place, and it’s certainly not Harris’s place, to redefine their experiences for them.
Reportedly this source document is printer’s manuscript and the original was only partially ruined, however the Church has never been able to produce the original.
Oh, good heavens. Yes, this is the printer’s manuscript, as we went over, and yes, the original was mostly damaged. The Church has produced the original on the Joseph Smith Papers Project. However, they did not obtain it until 2017. Prior to that, it was owned by the RLDS/Community of Christ Church, and the Church could not publish it in full color due to copyright reasons. There was a black and white copy copyrighted to the Community of Christ available on the website before that point.
So, in wrapping this all up, there was a clear, consistent theme running throughout this entire post. Vet your sources, guys. People lie, they twist the facts, and they have agendas. Be aware of that, and do your homework. Yeah, it can take a long time to do that, I get it. But the truth is important. When we hear slanted rhetoric like this, it’s not always obvious what the truth really is. We have to put in the work to figure it out. The Lord rewards us when we do. Remember, it’s after the trial of our faith that the witness of the truth comes to us.
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2023.03.21 08:26 ItsEsmeJones [MM4F] Game Over [Lovers to Exes?][Drunk Negligent Boyfriend Speaker][Confident Frat Boy Speaker][Absolutely Done Listener][Ex Drama][Meet-Cute?][Fight][Argument][Absent][Supportive]vs[Absent][Choosing][CW: Mentions of Gaslighting/Theoretical Cheating/Break-Ups]

Context: Your boyfriend got out of a BAD relationship a good year before he met you. You helped him get back into a routine, get his life back, and slowly fell in love. Despite that, despite all of his good qualities, he is still wrapped up in his abusive ex to the point where you feel like he's about to gain one more.
Setting: A frat party
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[T] = Troy, your boyfriend [E] = Eamond aka 'E' aka frat boy friendo
[Scene opens at a frat party]
[SFX: Party music]
[You maneuver the inside of a frat house, looking for your boyfriend. It takes a few minutes of drunken bumping and a few cheeky gropes before you see him leaning against a wall in the kitchen]
[Pause!]
[He smiles drunkenly as you approach him]
[T] “Baby! Hey! You made it!”
[...]
[His smile fades to confusion and then briefly to horrified realization]
[T] “Oh, uh… Yeah, I guess I did say I wouldn’t be at this party…”
[...]
[T] “Look, I just wanted to say bye to Mindy before she left the state, alright? That’s why I didn’t tell you… I knew you’d get mad for no good reason because, even though she’s my ex, I am not like that and you don’t need to worry about me being faithful, alright?”
[...]
[T] “I… A white lie once in a while doesn’t mean you can’t trust me!”
[Pause!]
[T] “Yes, OK! Yes, I am aware this is the same Mindy that damned near broke me. This is for my sense of closure, OK? I just want to get it over with and then we can go home. That’s why I called you…”
[...]
[T] “Baby, c’mon… You trust me, don’t you? I’m not a cheater. I’m not the best at thinking things out, but I’d never hurt you like that.”
[...]
[T] “Just… gimme thirty minutes. Go sit in the living room, I’ll say my piece, and then we can go home. I’ll make it up to you then, alright?”
[...]
[Mindy joins the party, smug as ever. You show tremendous heroism in not socking her in her face]
[T] “Mindy, hey! Yeah, my girlfriend is just here to get me home once we’re done talking. Babe, some privacy, please? I’ll be done soon, I promise.”
[...]
[You inhale through your nose, turn and march into the rowdy living room]
[E, slightly muffled] “No, I’ve got the controllers, let me just get the console up, and then we can crash on the couch to play!”
[SFX: The couch creaking as the Listener sits]
[...]
[Listener had never heard such bullshit.]
[You’re sitting, stewing in rage when a handsome young man plops by your side]
[SFX: Couch plopping]
[E] “Pardon us, miss. We were just playing this game where you have to use plastic guns. Didn’t mean to disturb your, um… angry vibrating?”
[...]
[The man smiles]
[E] “Hey, if you want to play, go for it. We’ve been stuck on this insanely hard level for like thirty minutes. Have had to reset and reconnect the console like five times just from Josh raging. Try not to do it this time, eh, Josh?”
[Pause.]
[He pauses. The other frat boys look taken aback as well]
[E] “...You heard her, Josh. Give her both guns.”
[SFX: The Listener clicking the triggers a few times/House of the Dead-style ambiance, or CarnEvil, if you’re a person of culture]
[E] “Ready, my friend?”
[Pause.]
[E] “Alright… Let’s go!”
[SFX: Arcade shootout noises for a bit with the occasional impressed reactions from the fratties]
[E] “She’s killing it!”
[Pause!]
[E] “No, seriously, that’s amazing! You’re in there with two Uzis like it is NO problem!”
[Before long, the frat boys are cheering you on as you mow down zombies, giant, mutant babies, etc. The occasional innocent blonde girl in a pink tube top, who’s counting?]
[E] “Almost… Almost, you just need one more hit on the Krampus boss!”
[Pause!]
[E] “Oh man, oh man oh man! I feel like I’m starting to get vapors over here from Missus Cool Guy, hehe.”
[Pause~]
[He laughs]
[E] “Ohhh, Missus Cool Guy was your mom, huh? What do I call you, then?”
[SFX: Some more shots and victory noises]
[E] “Holy shit, I call you the fucking CHAMP is what I call you! Dual-wielding Queen, let’s hear, it boys!”
[SFX: Cheering]
[You smile for the first time in…?]
[The handsome lad puts an arm around and draws you into his side]
[E] “Man! Glad you were here tonight, otherwise we might never have beaten the stupid game. Who invited you, by the way?”
[...]
[E] “...I see. That your boy over there with Mindy?”
[...]
[E] “Bet. What’s his name?”
[Pause]
[E] “Troy? Perfect. Boys, you know what to do.”
[You watch in confusion as all the frat boys take out some paper and start scribbling]
[Pause]
[E] “Why are they getting out paper and writing something down? You’ll see. Hey, Troy!”
[Your boyfriend turns towards you, confused]
[T] “Can I help you?”
[E] “Yeah. You got deep pockets?”
[T] “...What?”
[E] “In your pants. You got deep pockets?”
[T] “Uhh…I guess?”
[????]
[The handsome man smirks and winks at you]
[E] “Good. She’s gonna need that much space to carry both all of these phone numbers and the amount of self-respect you’re displaying here. Here’s my number, sweetheart. My name is Eamond, by the way, but folks just call me ‘E’.”
[Your boyfriend turns red. You turn redder]
[T] “Excuse me?? What the fuck do you think you’re doing hitting on my girlfriend like that?!”
[E, feigning confusion] “Whaaaat, I thought that was your girl over there! Mindy, isn’t that your man?”
[The girl looks away, smugness crushed under embarrassment]
[T] “Mindy is my ex. I came here to say my goodbyes before she left to return for school.”
[E] “Oh, cool! Then your girl should be able to accept numbers from guys that want to keep in touch after she leaves, right?”
[Troy turns, eyes blistering with fury]
[T] “...Look, I don’t know what your deal is-”.
[E, coldly] “I think you do.”
[SFX: The party quieting a little]
[T] “...excuse me?”
[E] “You know what my deal is because I’m the guy that guys like you hate the most. The one that can’t leave things alone when they don’t feel right to me, and what you’re doing is, no offense, fucking gross. You’re off your ass drunk but you haven’t even been here that long, from what I can tell, so you either drove drunk or hitched a ride to come and get your ego stroked while your actual girlfriend came here to get you.”
[T] “Dude. You don’t know-”.
[E] “I know Mindy. Mindy is also my ex. She’s also, on top of all of that, a manipulative snake of a woman who one hundred percent aimed to seduce you tonight just to rub it in your girl’s face here. I bet she gave you the ol’ ‘save me’ story, made you feel all manly and stoic, like a real savior, and you probably get off feeling good at something, right?”
[Pause!]
[SFX: Stomping and a door slamming shut]
[He rolls his eyes as Mindy storms from the now quiet room and slams the door shut behind her]
[E] “Yeah, you can eat my ass right back, Mindy! At least mine doesn’t have any plastic in it!”
[T] “You are pushing me over the fucking line, man! Mindy, wait!”
[Pause!]
[Your boyfriend stops as you yell at him]
[T] “Babe, I HAVE to go after her, she could hurt herself!”
[E] “Doubtful. She’s just using you, dude. Meanwhile, your girlfriend is here, being awesome, and you’re throwing it away for someone that did you dirty… Be smart, here.”
[...]
[Troy looks from E to you, enraged and struggling]
[T] “...If I leave, are you seriously going to hold it against me?”
[...]
[T] “She could get hurt! She’s tipsy too, and if she tries to drive… I’d be a terrible person if I didn’t at least check on her, alright?”
[...]
[T] “Look, I… I have to go, OK? I’ll text you later!”
[He hurries out before you can comprehend what happened]
[...]
[E] “...Sorry for starting shit. I didn’t expect him to be that… wow. Just wow. Are you OK?”
[...]
[E] “...He’s a dick to treat you like that. I understand he’s concerned about Mindy, and that’s fine, but she still has him twisted up… While expecting you to carry the workload while he takes his sweet-ass time trying to get his shit together. I don’t doubt she hurt him, believe me, but… Listen, me and the boys are happy to hang. It looks like you could use a night off from any more drama.”
[...]
[E] “...If you want to work out some of that anger, there’s always laser paintball…”
[...?]
[He grins]
[E] “Ohh yeah, they have great nachos.”
[...]
[Fuck it.]
[E] “Yes! C’mon, boys, we have a nice lady to attend to. Let’s make it a night to remember, yeah?”
[They cheer, rowdy and obnoxious but… there. It’s a bitter feeling, leaving without your boyfriend, but you’re sure Mindy can take care of him just fucking fine.]
[To be continued]
Note: Apologies to all Mindys out there, I’m sure you are all nice, non-sociopathic peeps, for the most part.
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2023.03.21 08:26 ur_mom_lol6969 Mmmmmm... Wouldn't you like to know mr. snow golem.

Sometimes, when everyone goes to sleep at night. The dogs, the fish, the parents, and the birds, I log into minecraft and make a new world. I spend a few minutes thinking about what I should call this new world of mine. All my worlds are very special to me. They're like little snow globes I keep next to my windowsill like a lil Hawaiian woman on a truckers dashboard. When the world is loading, I twiddle my thumbs and kick my legs back and forth until my bulging eyes shoot back at the monitor in excitement. It is slow sometimes, so I whisper under my breath "Load little pixels. You can do it." As my character loads in, I am greeted with the soft flash bang of morning light. My bedroom doesn't see much of the sun, so my eyeballs are very sensitive, like a tooth slowly getting pulled out of your mouth by a sadistic dentist. I rest my hands on the laptop's tender touchpad and use my finger nails to tap the awsd keys. I move around a bit just so I am aware of my surroundings. I see the trees, the water, the mountains in the distance, and a few cute little farm animals. It makes me sad that they don't let me get near the farm animals in our barn, and I'm not sure why. I asked him so many times "dad, why can't I see the cow?" His face freezes and his right hand starts to shake. He says to me, "the cow? she's doing fine. I played a lil bit with her this morning after your mother left for her chemo fusion." Sometimes my dad doesn't face me when I'm talking to him. The bitter honey in the big glass has taught me to be very persistent when asking my dad questions. "dad, what do u mean you played with the cow?" My dad's leg jolted swiftly. "Oh, I just help her with some physical stimulation. After that bad accident she had, Ol Bessy hasn't been able to milk the same." Often, I think about what my dad says. I can't help but close my eyes and smile thinking about my dad caring for our poor old cow. When I'm at the facility, I tell my friends that my dad is like superman. When they hear that, some of them seem jealous that I have such a good dad. My friend told me that his dad worked in a laboratory making snow. He seemed like such a nice person providing our community with fake snow for when Santa comes to the mall. I often think about these moments when I'm playing minecraft because my parents have made my mind so empty. My dad isn't the best teacher when it comes to math home work. After building my house, I roam around looking for villages because you can find lots of good and cool stuff. I remember finding a blue horse thingy that goes on your pet horsey. When I lifted the horse thing out of the wooden chest, I overheard two villagers talking about an undocumented illegal alien coming into their village. I was confused because I didn't know there were aliens in minecraft. Anyways, after taking the horse thingy, I made my way out of the village. I arrived home a little bit late, but nonetheless fulfilled. Slowly opening my door to the right, shifted my view towards a white plane in the distance. "Wait, it can't be!" I screamed to myself. I hadn't realized that I was this close to a snowy place. I left my stuff in my house, closed the door, and walked to the snow. The sun was setting and I could feel the cold chills caressing my pale skin. The sun was descending and the moon was rising. The world's contrast transitioned smoothly into a shadowy cold abyss. Spirits were moon jumping around me and smiling as if I was a light-bearing messiah comforting them with the hope of having a second chance at heavenly eternity. Though they faded away back into an inter-dimensional chasm of monotonous melancholy, that did not stop me from treading on. The snow was teething at my sandal-wearing feet, but it was my sole imperative to explore this cold region. My feet started to become numb and swollen. It was as if both of my feet were amputated and I was wobbling and drudging along with stilts stabbed and drilled into my bones. The pain kept creeping up up legs, slowly making its way into my hips. I could no longer keep going. The teething had turned into consumption, and the nerves traveling down my legs felt like a streamline of lights being turned off one after the other. I couldn't. I just couldn't keep moving. It was way too freaking much! Sorry, my dad told me not to curse. I exhaled my last breath, tipped over, and planted face first into the snow. I didn't even get to find a snow golem and do what I wanted with him... which was physic- WELP, time to make a new world!

LMFAOOOOOO
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2023.03.21 08:25 AS_25f Savings Account - Germany

Hello,
Im looking for savings bank accounts to park my emergency fund (20k euros) and some cash savings (200 euros every month). Right now, I have it in my Tagesgeldkonto with nearly 0% interest.
Does someone have suggestions about better bank accounts that would at least give me some considerable interest?

I came across ING and Barclays so far, that give around 2% for new customers. Woud this be a good option for me? My requirement is that I should be able to withdraw the money in case of emergencies.

Thank you in advance!
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2023.03.21 08:25 Ordinary_Argument_66 Best laptop for Business

Hey Reddit community, I'm looking to purchase a new laptop to run my online business, and I need some advice.
I'm looking for a PC that can handle running multiple programs and applications simultaneously, without any lag. I will not play any games so I don't need a great GPU. Also, I'm open to purchasing a refurbished PC if that helps me stay within my budget.
My price range is below $1000 (refurbished), so any recommendations within that range would be greatly appreciated.
Thanks in advance for your help!
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2023.03.21 08:25 Tzorfireis Is it possible to baby-proof Blender to protect myself from messing myself up?

I'm no where near even mildly competent in the program. In fact, I don't even know about 98% of the shortcuts and frequently press something on accident that completely changes how the program works entirely (from my admittedly incredibly poor understanding) and I can't figure out how to undo the change because there's so many things.
I'm just trying to use this program to make janky little models to use as references in my drawings, and don't intend on building proper proficiency in the program to make good stuff like I see a lot of here. Is there a way to simplify the program down so I don't accidentally get in my own way until I'm ready to tackle the program fully? I feel like an 80 year old whenever I open up Blender and don't know how anything works
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2023.03.21 08:23 Ty6255 Can a strong odor prevent me from sleeping?

They are renovating the apartment underneath me and the fumes from whatever chemicals they are using are so strong my apartment reeks of it. I have the windows open and a candle burning but still can smell it and I've been awake since 10 pm trying to sleep to no avail. Are these fumes keeping me awake? I can't concentrate on literally anything else and I feel nauseous.
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2023.03.21 08:23 Fimblethorp I (25m) feel a major disconnect emotionally from my partner (21f) due to lies. Help me, please.

To keep things digestable, we've been through a LOT together. Our traumas play a huge factor in our relationship, but what has truly driven a wedge between our intimacy within the past 2½ years is my porn addiction and how I lied to her about it off and on. She knows that I lied, the truth has come out between us and broke us apart twice. This last time feels like theres been so much more improvement from us both but the lingering betrayal haunts us.
I feel terrible for ruining her trust and ruining our foundation for love. It hurts me so deeply to see her struggle on her own and no ammount of love or sacrifice as the betrayer has changed much for her. I hate that i felt like i needed to lie to her years ago. I fucking hate it. I know where it stems from, but I live with the ache when i see her and just want to hold her and kiss her but shes so far away mentally or emotionally. The consiquences have been brutal to say the least.
I know I have to do a lot of work, through the depression, guilt, heartache, but i want to do whatever i can to help her. Anything, i just want to be happy and in love with her in moments that arent just pockets or bubbles. I want to treat her so special and for it to mean somethingore to her. I dont know enough about how to help someone, let alone my partner, through this. Its just so fucking draining for us both with how we do it now and we drift further and further apart because we do the same thing and just live day by day. If theres anyone whos "qualified" or someone who wants to offer help besides the cardboard response to "break up", i am open to anything.
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