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2023.05.28 18:44 fuckyoubitcj Im leaving my city for good next week. I don’t want to but I have to

All my life I was extremely shy, and coupled with strict, over-bearing parents it was very hard making friends. In high school I decided I had enough of my loneliness and tried to make friends with my sense of humor. I tried and tried but to no avail. I got desperate and began to loose my filter and just said whatever that came to mind. People began to ostracize me. The few friends I had made wanted nothing to do with me by my 3rd year, and the rest of my school found me to be weird and even a little creepy by graduation
I stayed in my city for college (as did most of my high school) and my social skills drastically improved and I made a few friends I still talk to. But the stories followed me. My old classmates who went to the same college as me were more than happy to tell my new school all about how I used to act. Many friends left me and I struggled to get a girlfriend due to it. When I would run into old classmates either on the street or at work, they would only wanna talk about how weird and awkward I was. When I would try to explain how I’ve changed nobody would believe me. And to my luck whenever I’d meet someone new, they were somehow always separated by at least 2 degrees to someone I went to high school with, so I’d often be making second impressions without realizing it
It’s been 10 years since graduation but the awful way I acted still plagues me. I honestly didn’t mean anything bad by it, I was just a socially awkward loner who had no idea how to talk to people. But I completely regret acting like that and of course I wish I could go back and change things.
I accepted a job 3000 miles away, in a city I’ve never been to, just to get away from my old self. I need a fresh start away from people who knew me. I swear I’ve changed even if nobody wants to hear it, but I don’t blame anyone for not believing me. I was a dick to everyone, they have every right to hate me
My biggest issue however, is that I love my city. I’ve lived here for 27 years and had aspirations of getting into local politics to fix some issues we had. I was always told I was gifted in politics, and my last job was working for a council member and they were mentoring to run for a local office next year. But people from high school started threatening to go to the papers with stories from high school if I filed so I gave that up and applied to a job in the farthest place I can think of. The worst part of that was those guys were doing it out of enjoyment. They didn’t care about being represented by the high school weirdo, they just still got off on seeing me fail
So here I am. Throwing away a life I tried to build over the last 10 years because my high school antics kept following me around. I really hope my high school life doesn’t follow me again. I’m moving for the purpose of starting over, I don’t think I can handle it anymore if my past follow me again. It took me years to gain the courage to leave the city that I love, I’m not sure what I’ll do if my plan backfires
As for all of you on Reddit, I’m not expecting sympathy or for any of you to believe me either. I just needed a place to vent, thank you for reading….
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2023.05.28 18:41 Wallcorners_wall_art HOW HIGH SHOULD I HANG WALL ART ON THE LIVING ROOM WALL?

HOW HIGH SHOULD I HANG WALL ART ON THE LIVING ROOM WALL?

Wall Art – When determining how high to hang wall art, consider a few key guidelines. Generally, the center of the artwork should be positioned at eye level, which is typically around 57 to 60 inches from the floor.

https://wallcorners.com/landscape-wall-art-painting-thomas-style-canvas-printing-art-for-bed-room-paintings-art-on-canvas-wholesale-canvas-art/
The correct height to hang wall art is eye level.
If the artwork is to be placed above a large wall art piece of furniture, Such as couch or a large cabinet. Make sure to leave enough space around the artwork.
If hanging the wall art or painting at eye level means it will be blocked by a piece of furniture or it will be placed too close too it – It is okay to hang the artwork a little bit higher.

ORIGINAL PAINTINGS VS. CANVAS ART PRINTS

When searching for art you may come to notice original art is more expensive than you intended to spend. That is perfectly okay. It’s important to keep in mind that original paintings are unique one of a kind works of art. That is why they tend to be more expensive than their canvas art print counterparts. Canvas art prints are high quality reproductions of the artists original work. A truly good art print is almost indistinguishable from the original painting.
If you’re decorating your living room on a budget we definitely encourage you to consider using high quality canvas art prints in your home decor. Please feel free to browse our online gallery for both original art and high quality canvas art prints.
https://wallcorners.com/abstract-city-landscape-wall-paintings-new-york-pictures-wall-decoration-canvas-art-prints-for-living-room-home-deco

BLACK AND WHITE WALL ART

Transform your living room into a gallery-like haven with a carefully curated painting wall art piece collection. Select a range of paintings that reflect your personal style and evoke the desired ambiance. From abstract expressions to serene landscapes and captivating portraits, each artwork becomes a visual masterpiece that captivates your guests.
Arrange the pieces in a cohesive display, considering color palettes, themes, and sizes for a harmonious composition. Let the brushstrokes, textures, and vibrant hues breathe life into your walls, creating an immersive and inspiring atmosphere. With a painting wall art piece collection, your living room becomes a sanctuary of artistic expression and sophistication.
https://wallcorners.com/abstract-minimalist-artwork-picture-canvas-painting-black-and-white-wall-art-poster-and-print-home-decor-for-living-room-design/

LARGE WALL ART AND OVERSIZED PAINTINGS

While “The bigger the better” is not a saying that is true about everything, In recent years it seems it applies well to art.
The usage of huge abstract paintings in modern home decor has been rising in popularity for the past few years and we don’t see it slowing down any time soon.
There is just something very bold and brave about allowing one piece of art to take such a strong role in the home decor.
https://wallcorners.com/valentine-wall-decor-abstract-large-oil-painting-hand-painted-canvas-modern-handmade-wall-art-for-portrait-woman-face-home-deco
It gives the work of art a place of honor and establishes it as the center piece of the interior design.
The right art piece in the right room can make wonders in these kind of conditions.

A SINGLE DARK COLORED WALL ART

Add a touch of personality and visual intrigue to your living room with patterned wallpapers. Explore an array of captivating designs, from geometric shapes to intricate florals and bold abstract motifs. These patterned wallpapers create a dynamic backdrop that instantly elevates your space. Opt for monochromatic patterns for a chic and minimalist look, or embrace vibrant colors for a statement-making impact. Whether you prefer a subtle texture or a bold graphic, patterned wallpapers infuse your living room with character and style. Transform your walls into a work of art and create a captivating atmosphere that reflects your unique taste.
https://wallcorners.com/5d-diamond-painting-modern-fashion-graffiti-street-pop-art-woman-diamond-embroidery-kits-art-painting-home-decor-gift/
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2023.05.28 18:37 Dom_Cravings 21 [M4F] Looking for a leading actress for my best interest of the cliché Slice Of Life roleplay and OOC chats!

Hello hello! Hope everyone is doing well! I am back here today on my search for a like minded partner, someone who's easy going, laid back and friendly. I want to create a beautiful and long term roleplay with you! I currently have a lot of time in my hands, so I can be available mostly the whole day.
A little about me. I am a detailed and experienced roleplayer (7 years), meaning I can be crafty and descriptive. I also love to make new friends so let's talk OOC too (actually this is a requirement, please be friendly and conversable). Building a healthy chatty relationship will make it easier and nice for us to roleplay. We could get to know each other better, discuss roleplay more and drive it to our likings and more. Lastly, I like to play on Discord sooo.... Have it I guess?
I like to craft plots with my potential partner, including both of our interests to make it juicy! It also helps us to get to know how much compatible we are, our likes and interests, etc. I also like to send reference pics for the character and outfits, it just brings more life to the roleplay!
Now, I am going to leave some tropes that interest me and you can message me from any you like!
Married Couples, Arranged Marriage, Childhood Friends, Enemies To Lovers, Friends to lovers, Co-workers, Roommates, Classmates, Love Triangle.
I am probably forgetting some, but feel free to hit me up with your choice!
My ideal slice of life roleplay would be to include nice, warm, wholesome and lovey - dovey moments into the play. I really want something pure in it, I want to be smiling while roleplaying about this. The idea of two characters being so into each other, looking out for each other in their tough times, that magical touch of love into the play (if you know what I mean). Like the perfect romance, the "these two are meant for each other. These two are goals!" factor is what I am looking for. Along with that some spice, some drama, angst, twists and turns to just make it into a Netflix worthy (is that too dramatic? If so, pardon me!)
I know there are a lot of you who like the prompts to be tilted towards the fantasy side, I am up! I haven't really done a lot of fantasy prompts. I've only done modern slice of life roleplays back and forth. So, if you're patient with me, I'll quickly learn! Just have a nice prompt about it :).
That's all!
While messaging me -
Lastly, bring a prompt if you have one! I'd love to hear out :). I promise if I like it, I'll contribute my bits and pieces, or as I mentioned, the story creation is on the table!
So then! Message me with more than a "Hi I am interested, are you still looking" and let's proceed further!
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2023.05.28 18:37 Environmental-Bus941 Rotary Exchange Questions

Hi, I am currently a student looking to do an foreign exchange and have run into some issues and was wondering if anybody could answer my questions as the people I’ve asked are not sure. (I am in Canada btw)
  1. Regarding the districts lines: What’s up with that? In my “rotary district” there is a few clubs that I had messaged, and then one that had turned out to be from (I didn’t know then but) another district and said that they had to take an “inbound” student, is that true? And what happens if none of the clubs in my area are not supporting students at this time? Could a club outside of my district take me (mind you it would be a different “rotary district” but the school board would all still the same for all the clubs that I had messaged in my area so I am confused). I have also heard from different people that only my home town club could take me so I am not sure.
  2. What is the timeline for submitting applications? As of now its late May and from what I have seen they select students leaving for the next year in September so am I on a firm crunch?
  3. What do I do if no club in my “district” can take me? Should I start messaging the clubs outside of my district with my situation?
As of now this is all I can think of, but I may come back with more questions. Thank you for any information you can give.
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2023.05.28 18:37 Open-Entertainer-517 I'm just tired of my family

throwaway for personal reasons, and this is just gonna be a long rant so :/
I'm sick and tired of my life. I just... I don't like saying I hate my family, but I'm certainly not happy. And i'm sure I'm going to sound like a spoiled teenager by the end of this, but at this point, I don't care anymore.
I feel like I just can't live in my own house. I get stressed really easily and I'm anxious a lot and I just can't talk to anyone about it. I usually don't even know what I'm stressed about, and when I try to explain that to my parents, they just take it as me being stressed over nothing and that I don't have to worry about anything and that I should be fine. I just don't know how to express it. I just started lying about what I'm stressed about (like saying I'm worried about a test), but as soon as I finish that they expect it to be like a blank slate. Is it just me who takes a bit of time to get over stress? And when I am actually worried about something, like being afraid that I'd fail a test, I'm "going to do fine, you're a straight-A student". Like that will magically relieve all my stress, and I will still want to do well. (I'm out of school now, just using it as an example) And also, I know this makes no sense, but I hate eating in the house. My mom is the kind of healthy-only, organic-only kind of moms, which is fine, I don't mind it, but it means she barely buys anything processed. You basically need to cook or at least put in at least 10/15 minutes to make something to eat in my house, unless we have guests over and then she'll buy some healthy snacks. I can cook fine, but I just don't like being around them long enough to make something I want to eat. So I just kind of.. stopped eating until dinner. And I know it's not healthy, and that I need energy and I need to eat, but I just don't want to be around them. I'm not doing it to lose weight or because I feel like I can't, I just don't want to be around them to make myself something. I feel bad about ranting to my friends, so I just stopped. Whenever I feel like I'm starting to enjoy something with them, it gets unraveled within a week. I hung out downstairs after dinner watching a new show with my mom, but then my dad got back from his business trip and he "doesn't like TV shows" so now after dinner they've started watching movies I don't like, so I stopped watching with them. They know I don't like them, and when I leave to just go to my room, I'm "in my room all the time and they never get to see me" and if I go downstairs to do something, it's "oh, I finally get to see you!" or "oh, she's alive!" which just makes me not want to go downstairs. I just feel like a piece of cr*p, like a spoiled brat, because we live in a nice house and we get nice things but I still just don't want to be around them. I can't drive or get a job, and now that it's summer I'm in the house almost all the time. I just feel so isolated, while my brother is fine. Sorry for the stupid rant, but I'm just so tired of everything right now and I needed to tell someone
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2023.05.28 18:36 Hopeful_Increase_155 Creepy coworker.. advice plz

Long story short I have worked with this guy for just over a year. It's been quite obvious that he has a thing for me, but I have clearly rejected him in the past and never given him any reason to assume I am the least bit interested. I do not talk to him outside of work. He's about 10 years older than me. Its not just me he makes feel uneasy he's been called out for making sexual jokes to the minors that work with us and has been accused of inappropriatly touching one of them, to which we were all told to just "get over" so as we don't make HIM feel uncomfortable. He is the only staff that hasn't handed in his criminal record check that was due almost 3months ago and I am starting wondering if there something on it that could get him fired.
Anyways... he just been a creep toward me latley. hes always watching me and offers me gifts. He questions me when I leave the room. "Where have I been? With who? Why?" Gets mad when I don't invite him out for a smoke with me and once gave me the cold shoulder for a week because he had threatend to quit and I didn't not beg him to stay for me....
a few weekends ago I went out on a real nice date with a really nice guy and some how this co worker found out and ever since is behaving like a toxic possesive ex boyfriend and its really making me feel uncomfortable. All week hasn't spoken to me, which makes performing my job tough. I am a the dining room supervisor and he is a cook so communicarion is pretty important. He also likes to agressivly slam things around, around me jusy so i know he is mad at me and then just lurk in the corners watching me work. Hes been making comments to our other coworkers that he doesn't understand how I just can't see what's right in front of me, and if I really wanted to date someone it should be him.
I have talked to our boss about it, I don't think it is fair to me to continue to be made uncomfortable for living my life, its really none of his bussiness what i do or who i date. I don't even know what you would classify this as. He hasn't touched me (yet) so I don't think it would fall under sexual harrassment but the possessive and passive aggressive vibes I am pickin up on are creepy and completely unnecessary.
When i spoke to our boss about it she first told me she understood why it would make me uncomfortable and let me leave a bit early to avoid being alone with him and any drama that might insue. She also told me she would speak with him the next day while i was off.
The next day I receive a text from my boss stating she hadn't spoken to him yet because she "didn't want to piss him off atm but will maybe get a chance on Wednesday" and offered me a paid personal day today and to take my shift for me. To which I agreed to but excuse me??? Thats a bit of a slap in the face no? like she's saying his feelings are more important than how he is making me feel...
Has anyone experienced this? What should I do? I love my job, I'm getting paid well and I am good at it. I really don't want to quit but I am pretty upset by this whole situtation both with him and our boss and am dreading work on Monday.
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2023.05.28 18:36 Dom_Cravings 21 [M4F] Looking for a leading actress for my best interest of the cliché Slice Of Life roleplay and OOC chats!

Hello hello! Hope everyone is doing well! I am back here today on my search for a like minded partner, someone who's easy going, laid back and friendly. I want to create a beautiful and long term roleplay with you! I currently have a lot of time in my hands, so I can be available mostly the whole day.
A little about me. I am a detailed and experienced roleplayer (7 years), meaning I can be crafty and descriptive. I also love to make new friends so let's talk OOC too (actually this is a requirement, please be friendly and conversable). Building a healthy chatty relationship will make it easier and nice for us to roleplay. We could get to know each other better, discuss roleplay more and drive it to our likings and more. Lastly, I like to play on Discord sooo.... Have it I guess?
I like to craft plots with my potential partner, including both of our interests to make it juicy! It also helps us to get to know how much compatible we are, our likes and interests, etc. I also like to send reference pics for the character and outfits, it just brings more life to the roleplay!
Now, I am going to leave some tropes that interest me and you can message me from any you like!
Married Couples, Arranged Marriage, Childhood Friends, Enemies To Lovers, Friends to lovers, Co-workers, Roommates, Classmates, Love Triangle.
I am probably forgetting some, but feel free to hit me up with your choice!
My ideal slice of life roleplay would be to include nice, warm, wholesome and lovey - dovey moments into the play. I really want something pure in it, I want to be smiling while roleplaying about this. The idea of two characters being so into each other, looking out for each other in their tough times, that magical touch of love into the play (if you know what I mean). Like the perfect romance, the "these two are meant for each other. These two are goals!" factor is what I am looking for. Along with that some spice, some drama, angst, twists and turns to just make it into a Netflix worthy (is that too dramatic? If so, pardon me!)
I know there are a lot of you who like the prompts to be tilted towards the fantasy side, I am up! I haven't really done a lot of fantasy prompts. I've only done modern slice of life roleplays back and forth. So, if you're patient with me, I'll quickly learn! Just have a nice prompt about it :).
That's all!
While messaging me -
Lastly, bring a prompt if you have one! I'd love to hear out :). I promise if I like it, I'll contribute my bits and pieces, or as I mentioned, the story creation is on the table!
So then! Message me with more than a "Hi I am interested, are you still looking" and let's proceed further!
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2023.05.28 18:36 stop-trolling- Last night

I had a dream that kshordy got out of prison and i saw him at the corner store. I asked for a picture and we took a picture!!!! That image will never leave my mind 😩
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2023.05.28 18:36 SavingsSpare8104 How can I quickly dry my nails?

How can I quickly dry my nails?
Have your nails ever been perfectly manicured or pedicured, waited a long time, and then discovered that they still had smudges on them? Believe us, we understand. We're providing advice on how to dry nail paint quickly because of this. So, here are a few trade secrets you might want to try out!

1. How much time does nail polish require to dry?

The drying time will vary depending on the type of nail polish being used. Several things can affect how long things take to dry. The type of polish used, the thickness and number of applications used, and whether or not you incorporated nails art beauty are a few examples. In spite of this, it usually takes between 10 and 15 minutes for nail polish to dry. The best course of action is to stay away from any dangerous activities, even if your manicure or pedicure seems dry. In the case of a pedi, avoid jogging shortly after getting your nails done.

2. Why isn't the lacquer on my nails drying?

Inadequate application is the most frequent cause of your nail polish not drying. Drying time can be significantly sped up by applying too many layers, applying too many coats too quickly, or applying too many coats. Additionally, if you've waited a while and your nails are still wet, check the bottle's expiration date. That nail paint bottle may have been stored for a lot longer than you realized, and now it is just bad.

3. How may nail polish be quickly dried?

The fact that you don't have a lot of time can be a contributing factor in the issue. Or perhaps you're just tired since your most recent manicure was destroyed while you were waiting for it to dry. You've been contemplating how to dry nails quickly, whether it was because of a terrible experience or a hectic schedule. Nearly all people who enjoy nail art think about ways to reduce drying time. That nail technicians have developed a variety of tips and tricks is not at all surprising. So, if you still have questions about how soon nail polish dries, read on. To find out, keep reading!

4. Polish that dries quickly

It didn't take long for nail polish makers to grasp the difficulty of long drying times as more people entered the beauty business and regularly used nail polish on their clients. Fast-drying nail polish was created as a result. There won't be much waiting required after using this type of nail paint. On your hand or foot, the first nail should be dry by the time you get to the last nail.

trendy short gel nails

5. Dryer for nail polish

One of the most widely used methods for accelerating nail polish drying is a hairdryer. Just bear in mind to always use cool air, never hot, when setting your blow dryer. If it is set to warm air, your nail polish may end up melting rather than drying. Additionally, make sure the air burst isn't too powerful. In the end, you want your lacquer to dry rather than blitz it off your nails and onto your cuticles. Additionally, if you don't have access to a hairdryer, you may try fanning your nails with some paper.

6. Swift-drying drips

Oil-based, quick-drying drops are a great substitute for a fast-drying top coat because they don't add a second layer to your nail. The drops maintain the color while absorbing the solvents in the nail polish. The drops create a sort of barrier after you apply them to your nails. They protect your nails from tiny foreign objects like dirt or dust. They simply slip off, not setting in the polish. The composition of these products also makes them a fantastic cuticle moisturizer. A win-win situation, indeed!

7. How quickly does water dry nails?

A cold water nail polish method may be what you're thinking of. You can try two other approaches, though. Start by soaking your freshly painted nails in cold water. To avoid leaving smudges on your nails, make sure the water is flowing short gel nails natural steadily but not too quickly. Before painting your nails, use the second technique: place two or three ice cubes in a bowl of cold water. Following the completion of your nail painting, wait two minutes before dipping your nails into the bowl and holding them there for five minutes. When you pull your nails out, you should notice water beads forming on the nail plate. It will result in your nail.
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2023.05.28 18:35 Dom_Cravings 21 [M4F] Looking for a leading actress for my best interest of the cliché Slice Of Life roleplay and OOC chats!

Hello hello! Hope everyone is doing well! I am back here today on my search for a like minded partner, someone who's easy going, laid back and friendly. I want to create a beautiful and long term roleplay with you! I currently have a lot of time in my hands, so I can be available mostly the whole day.
A little about me. I am a detailed and experienced roleplayer (7 years), meaning I can be crafty and descriptive. I also love to make new friends so let's talk OOC too (actually this is a requirement, please be friendly and conversable). Building a healthy chatty relationship will make it easier and nice for us to roleplay. We could get to know each other better, discuss roleplay more and drive it to our likings and more. Lastly, I like to play on Discord sooo.... Have it I guess?
I like to craft plots with my potential partner, including both of our interests to make it juicy! It also helps us to get to know how much compatible we are, our likes and interests, etc. I also like to send reference pics for the character and outfits, it just brings more life to the roleplay!
Now, I am going to leave some tropes that interest me and you can message me from any you like!
Married Couples, Arranged Marriage, Childhood Friends, Enemies To Lovers, Friends to lovers, Co-workers, Roommates, Classmates, Love Triangle.
I am probably forgetting some, but feel free to hit me up with your choice!
My ideal slice of life roleplay would be to include nice, warm, wholesome and lovey - dovey moments into the play. I really want something pure in it, I want to be smiling while roleplaying about this. The idea of two characters being so into each other, looking out for each other in their tough times, that magical touch of love into the play (if you know what I mean). Like the perfect romance, the "these two are meant for each other. These two are goals!" factor is what I am looking for. Along with that some spice, some drama, angst, twists and turns to just make it into a Netflix worthy (is that too dramatic? If so, pardon me!)
I know there are a lot of you who like the prompts to be tilted towards the fantasy side, I am up! I haven't really done a lot of fantasy prompts. I've only done modern slice of life roleplays back and forth. So, if you're patient with me, I'll quickly learn! Just have a nice prompt about it :).
That's all!
While messaging me -
Lastly, bring a prompt if you have one! I'd love to hear out :). I promise if I like it, I'll contribute my bits and pieces, or as I mentioned, the story creation is on the table!
So then! Message me with more than a "Hi I am interested, are you still looking" and let's proceed further!
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2023.05.28 18:32 wachuwamekil Planning a trail on my property

I’ve got around 2.5 acres that I have been planting trees on for the past 4-5 years. The trees are still small and have a ways to go but I want to begin planting them more strategically to accommodate a small trail on the property. We have trails in the area but my situation doesn’t allow me to leave the house for extended periods of time.
What is the best way to go about planning a path on the property?
The property is essentially a very mild slope with a few flat areas to cut up in and a couple short aggressive drops. I have to keep in mind the waste water sprinklers but can map around those. I’ve gotten out there with my bike a few times and have a general idea of what I want but how do I map it and track it on the land?
My goal is to have at least a 1/4 mile single rider path, I’m ok with sharp turns and switch backs. I’d also like to open it up to friends if they want to ride it from time to time.
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2023.05.28 18:32 RBZL FAA Investigations for Pilot Deviations: Everything you never knew you wanted to know!

Hey everyone. As a bit of background, I'm a former FAA Aviation Safety Inspector (ASI). No, I'm not your_friendly_asi, though I've communicated with them. I've previously posted about my path to 1500 hours, and I've made incognito comments about what the FAA is or isn't likely do while I was employed as an ASI. However, the FAA's social media policy is both ambiguous and strict, so I was careful about what I said. Now that I'm no longer employed, I'm comfortable sharing a bit more about the ASI job, and what the FAA (either as an agency, as a FSDO, or as an individual ASI) is likely to do in certain circumstances.
Of course, one of the biggest concerns as a pilot is what happens when you become the subject of a FAA investigation, whether you were the one that screwed something up or you were caught by proxy (i.e. as someone's instructor). There are a lot of misconceptions among the pilot community about what's going to happen to you, and what you need to do. So, let's talk about it!
Obligatory note that I am no longer employed with the Federal government of the FAA, and that the information below is my personal viewpoint and not an official position of the FAA. All of this information is available publicly via FAA orders which dictate how investigations and deviations are handled. I'm not telling you anything secret or proprietary here. Also note that each FAA office can operate a little differently, but still be within the policies and guidance.

Why would the FAA investigate me?

The FAA is charged with investigating anything which falls within it's 9 "areas of responsibility", as mandated by Congress and 49 USC. See FAA order 8020.11, as revised. Those areas include the competency of FAA-certificated airmen, and violations of Federal Aviation Regulations (14 CFR). Therefore, if the FAA becomes aware that there is a possibility that you may have violated a regulation or that you might not be competent for whatever reason, the FAA is mandated to look into it.
You would probably find yourself in this situation after making some sort of error or mistake. It's not hard as a pilot to violate a regulation, if we're being perfectly honest. 91.123(a) is probably the most common violation - failure to comply with an ATC clearance. This is fairly all-encompassing. You could take a wrong turn during taxi, land on the wrong runway, get off your assigned altitude or route while IFR, or anything else you can think of which ATC instructed to do but you didn't for whatever reason. And this is just one single regulation in Part 91 - obviously there are hundreds of regulations in 14 CFR which you could potentially run afoul of, though ATC clearances are the most commonly investigated because ATC notices you deviated from your clearance and essentially snitches on you (not hating on them - more on that later).

How would I know I'm being investigated?

Ultimately, you'll know because eventually someone at the FAA will contact you. It will usually be an ASI. Depending on the source of the report and the workload of the ASI, you may not hear anything until a month or so after the event. The ASI may send you a formal Letter of Investigation (LOI), a Compliance Program and Pilot's Bill of Rights (CP & PBR) brochure, or they may just try to give you a phone call initially. ASIs CAN text you and email you! Many ASIs are issued cell phones, and nothing says they can't try to get a hold of you using any means. My process was to call the pilot and ask for an email address so that I could send some information that way, instead of needing to physically throw something in the snail mail. Policies can vary by each office, though.
If you mess something up and ATC issues you what's known as a Brasher warning (i.e. "possible pilot deviation" usually along with "I have a phone number for you to call"), it doesn't guarantee that you're going to end up being investigated. Depending on what happened, though, ATC may be required to submit something called a MOR, or a Mandatory Occurrence Report. So yes, ATC sometimes snitches on you, but they're required to for certain things. It can also be controller and facility dependent as to what they will file reports for - if a facility is seeing a lot of the same deviations/violations, they might start filing reports even if it's something minor in order to try to put some attention on it higher up. This report makes its way through the ATC chain until it is eventually forwarded to the FSDO with responsibility over the event. If you're a GA pilot, the FSDO covering the geographical area where you messed something up will investigate. If you're a certificate holder or fly for one (part 121, 135, etc), the report will go to the FSDO, CHDO, or CMO which manages that certificate. Routing all of this is a whole process, which is why it can take a month or more after the event to be contacted by the FAA.

An ASI contacted me after some sort of event happened... F*%#. Now what?

Straight to jail, obviously. Might as well cut up your certificates too, before they come pick you up. It will show the ASI that you feel bad about what you did, and that you respect his authoritah, which may lead to a reduced sentence.
Nah, you're probably one of about 12 PDs (Pilot Deviations) on the ASI's desk right now. Remember that whole mandate for the FAA to investigate certain things? The ASI is most likely not out to get you, he's just doing his bureaucratic job. Keep in mind that an ASI is also a pilot, holding at least a Commercial Pilot Certificate and meeting Airline Transport Pilot qualifications, and if he's a General Aviation Operations ASI he's also a current CFI with at least a few hundred hours of instructing. He's going to contact you as described above, send you the Pilot's Bill of Rights in some form, and probably try to schedule a time to talk with you about what happened. This will normally just be a phone call. The ASI might also ask you to provide copies of some things, like your logbooks showing that you were current and had the appropriate endorsements for the type of flight you were conducting. Your pilot and medical certificates can be looked up, but you may also be asked for copies of those to verify that you have them in your possession and that they match. Other things may be requested, as appropriate, depending on what exactly happened.
The purpose of the interview (phone call, or otherwise) is for the ASI to determine a few things: what happened, why it happened, if it was intentional, and why you are or aren't likely to do the same thing again. In short, the ASI is tasked with gathering all of the facts associated with the event, and performing a Root Cause Analysis to determine why whatever it is that happened did happen. Your input and perspective as the pilot is very important to this, because nobody knows what you were thinking or what you were seeing except you. Without your input, the ASI has to make a determination on what to do about the event with only the other limited information available.
The possible outcomes of this investigative process are typically: No Action, Compliance Action, Remedial Training via FAAST, 49 USC 44709 Reexamination, or Enforcement Action. There are also things called SNAAPs which are basically warning letters, but they aren't commonly used in most FSDOs for GA pilots. Ultimately, the ASI and the FSDO/CHDO/CMO is empowered to take any action which they feel will ensure continued safety of the National Airspace System.

Some of those outcomes don't sound encouraging. What's going to happen to me? Sounds like "straight to jail" is still on the table.

I'd say that over about 95% of the time, a PD is going to be resolved with Compliance Action. This is part of the FAA's new Compliance Program/Philosophy. I'd really recommend a quick read of FAA Order 8000.373, as it's only a page and a half and really sums up the point of the Compliance Program. If you get the CP & PBR brochure (see it here), it also explains the general idea. The FAA at one point figured out that to actually enhance aviation safety, they needed to obtain the perspective of pilots involved in deviations. Pilots aren't willing to share information which might be incriminating, though, if there is no incentive to do so. Why would you tattle on yourself if the FAA is just going to use that information to work on taking your certificate away via Enforcement Action?
The Compliance Program allows an ASI to resolve a probable regulatory violation or deviation without resorting to Enforcement Action. The potential corrective actions are pretty limitless and are at the discretion of the ASI and the office, but typically this is accomplished via Compliance Action Counseling. The ASI is going to review their Root Cause Analysis with you, and offer feedback and suggestions in order to help ensure that the situation does not occur again. This is normally done via a phone call, with a follow-up letter. For simple violations, half of the time I would simply complete counseling on the phone immediately after the interview with a pilot. Occasionally, Remedial Training would be suggested if a pilot was very rusty and the event involved something like a runway incursion where the consequenses were potentially more serious if things happened to go really sideways.
The thing with the Compliance Program is that the ASI needs to be confident that you also understand the root cause of the event, and that you are willing and able to comply with applicable regulations in the future. "Willing" means that you're willing to openly talk to the ASI about the event and share what happened, what you learned, and how you plan to mitigate against such a situation in the future, so you might want to think about that before your conversation. "Able" means that you are competent and proficient enough to exercise your privileges without invoking future violations, among other things. Entering into the interview conversation having already thought about the root causes, and what you've already done or are going to do to ensure that the event won't be a repeat occurrence will do a huge amount to assure the ASI that you are indeed willing and able to comply in the future.
If there is a serious question as to your competency, you might be looking at a 44709 reexamination ("709 Ride"). As most pilots know, this is essentially a checkride, or a portion thereof, conducted by the ASI to evaluate whatever Areas of Operation of the applicable ACS or PTS that you have been identified as potentially being deficient in. These are fairly rare, and generally only occur after things like accidents where a pilot's actions or story indicate that they really may not have known what they're doing. If you mess up an instrument approach in IMC reeeeally badly, ATC has to intervene repeatedly, and you don't think that you did anything wrong after the fact and that it was all ATC's fault, you may also be looking at a 709 ride, for example.
Enforcement Action is typically reserved for the most egregious violations, or violations where a pilot willingly and deliberately engaged in a violation or another sort of illegal activity. If you're flying with literally everything expired, both in terms of yourself and the airplane, and you're doing other dumb and illegal things during that flight like buzzing people or houses, there's no way that you shouldn't have known better. This is the process in which your certificates are in danger, or you're looking at civil penalties or criminal charges, as applicable. If you made an honest mistake, even if it resulted in a totaled airplane and a hospital stay, Enforcement Action is extremely unlikely because the Compliance Program is designed to handle most unintentional violations. Enforcement cases are also a huge workload and pain in the rear for both the ASI and the office.

So for each outcome, what does it mean in the end? Will it be on my record anywhere?

For Compliance Action, Remedial Training, and a successfully passed 709 Ride, typically, no. Once you successfully complete whatever the requirement is for you to return to compliance, you'll receive a letter stating that the FAA/ASI have determined there is no cause for further action and that you may consider the matter closed. These events don't show up on any record that the FAA would normally forward about you, i.e. in a PRIA request or via the Pilot Records Database. However, many aviation employers and airlines do now specifically ask if you have ever been the subject of a FAA investigation, a 44709 reexamination, or something along those lines. Whether or not they have the means to verify this with the FAA, I'm not sure and I honestly really doubt, but it would be at your own risk to not report such events to an employer if asked.
For a failed 44709 Reexamination (x2 - you usually get two shots, unless the first one was so terrible that the ASI believes you have absolutely no chance whatsoever of passing a second time) or Enforcement Action, those will turn up because the result will usually be a certificate suspension, revocation, or downgrade. Enforcement Action will likely having you talking to the FAA's attorneys in an attempt to settle the matter with a suspension or something similar. If you did something really big, illegal, and intentional, you're probably headed to the NTSB judges eventually, though they're backed up years because they handle all of the Department of Transportation cases and not just the FAA. They also do so with only a handful of judges.
So really, an honest mistake with today's FAA isn't that big of a deal so long as you weren't intentionally violating regulations, and you're willing to talk about what happened and why it's not going to happen again. The ASI will appreciate your cooperation in quickly clearing another PD off his task list, and you can get back to flying without the trip to jail.

FAQs

Why are pilots so afraid of this process, then? If you're not lying, it doesn't sound so bad.

The "old" FAA didn't have the Compliance Program. The only tool in their toolbox was a hammer (Enforcement Action), and every violation or other problem was a nail. Any little mistake that a pilot made did carry real jeopardy that their certificate was in danger. Obviously, that didn't foster trust that the FAA was really there to help, because they often weren't. There was also a time before ASRS/ASAP reporting and other programs which reduced or eliminated the penalties in exchange for information sharing. Essentially, the FAA finally figured out that if they wanted to improve aviation safety, they needed honest and accurate information from pilots. Pilots weren't inclined to share information if it would be used against them and enforcement was the only outcome. Programs were created to remove the consequences of an unintentional violation, and those are now the primary ways that deviations are resolved. Many pilots are still afraid of the "old" FAA, even though in practice it no longer really exists.

Do I need a lawyer to talk to the FAA or ASI during an investigation?

No. If you have access to one at no cost through another benefit like AOPA or employer insurance, go for it. However, lawyers just become an intermediary to work through, especially for simple deviations. If you want to minimize consequenses, you're going to personally talk to the ASI and you're going to openly share information about the event. A lawyer can't get you out of an investigation or the outcome, because they can't override the very broad 49 USC authority that the FAA has been given in both investigating and reexamining airmen. If you know for sure you're looking at an Enforcement Action, you can still settle with the FAA attorneys on your own, but a laywer at that point is up to you. Heading to NTSB court? Yeah, lawyer up, because you done messed up now, A-A-Ron.
You are always free to retain a lawyer and direct the FAA to communicate with them at any time, and most ASIs really don't care one way or another, but I would say it's an unnecessary expense if your deviation was an honest mistake. Do whatever makes you feel better, though.

Should I really talk to the ASI during the investigation? This seems like a trap.

As explained, the Compliance Program is only an option if you're willing and able to comply. If you're not willing to openly and honestly talk about the event, you're not really willing to comply. The alternative if you are determined to have violated a regulation is Enforcement Action, soooo... your choice!

What if I don't want to disclose everything to the ASI? What all do they know/have access to?

More often than not, the ASI has the ATC data regarding the event. This includes the radar data and ATC communications. They can play back the portion of your flight in question, so they can see where you actually were, what you were actually doing, and what was actually said. They of course also have access to the FAA databases for your certificates, medical, aircraft, and prior contact with the FAA. I wouldn't suggest lying about any of that.
An ASI reviews all of this before reaching out to you, so usually your conversation is just to fill in the gaps and figure out what was going on in the airplane from your perspective. If I can see or hear from ATC data that you took a wrong turn during taxi and then were embarassed about it before I even talk to you, I probably just have one or two gaps to fill in as to why it happened. Otherwise, unless this is the third time you've come up on my desk this year or you tell me something really abhorrent when we talk, it's almost certainly going to be a Compliance Action Counseling conversation and then good day, sir.

What about the NASA ASRS report? Doesn't that get me out of jail?

Kind of - honestly, an ASI typically isn't even aware if you filed one, or what the status of that is. It would likely come into play if you were facing Enforcement Action. Filing a report will not guarantee that an investigation does not occur, or that you will not need to talk to an ASI. It only guarantees that you will be immune to civil penalties or certificate suspension if you file a report in a timely manner, and you weren't doing something illegal. The information in your report also can't be used for enforcement purposes. That said, if the FAA finds out about a potential violation a month later, and you knew about it but didn't file a report, you generally can't go file one after the fact as an oopsie-daisy to try to avoid the consequences. If you suspect you violated something and you're worried about it, it never hurts to file the report. And as explained above, unless you were grossly deficient or intentionally violating a regulation, you're probably only looking at Compliance Action either way.

I received a Letter of Investigation. Am I in more trouble than just receiving the CP & PBR Brochure? What's the difference?

Not necessarily. You're supposed to receive the Pilot's Bill of Rights in some form before the FAA talks to you about an investigation into an event in any substantial manner, regardless of the nature of the investigation or what the expected outcome is. The LOI is required to be sent to you prior to any Enforcement Action, so some ASIs/offices send out LOIs for any report of a Pilot Deviation just in case something is discovered which pushes it into enforcement. Both the Brochure and LOI contain the required Pilot's Bill of Rights notification, so either one works from the ASI's perspective of simply being able to talk to you about the event. The LOI does inherently come off as more intimidating, though, as it's more formal and on the FAA letterhead.

An ASI randomly handed me a CP & PBR Brochure on the ramp, at an air show, etc - am I in trouble?

No, unless they wrote something in the brochure indicating something specific about a potential violation. ASIs are supposed to share the brochures to raise awareness of the Compliance Program whenever they interact with pilots.

I had a bad interaction with the FAA where _____ happened, and it was nothing like what you said.

Sorry about that. Like I said, not every office is the same. Generally, ASIs want to use the Compliance Program to get things out the door where they can. Maybe you got a grumpy ASI, or their office had seen that sort of thing a lot and was cracking down, or there was more to the story. Like any organization, let alone being the fed, there is some inconsistency between regions and offices. Every ASI I personally knew would have done their best to be fair and to follow the CADP (Compliance Action Decision Process), which I more or less explained in the sequence of events above.

I have another question about what the FAA would or wouldn't do.

Feel free to post it or DM me - I can't guarantee any specific course of action or outcome, and I don't speak for the FAA officially, but I might know some stuff about things regarding your Q.
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2023.05.28 18:32 bill_e_midnight The victories worth celebrating

My last post
I’ve been meaning to write this for a while and life got in the way. So it’s a little longer than I would like. To anyone who reads the whole thing, thank you.
For those who prefer a TL;DR: My progress has been so fucking good. I completed a 4.2-mile race I’ve wanted to do since I was in college. I spent a week in Disneyworld for the first time ever and did multiple open to closing days without feeling like I wanted to die. I am on track for my goal of being under 300 pounds before my 30th birthday and take my first discovery flight on that day to begin training to get my pilot’s license.
I feel so fucking good.
Now onto the full post.
I never thought I’d write something like this.
When I was in college, my mother passed away unexpectedly. It was, as one might expect, extremely difficult and something I was nowhere close to being prepared for.
My mom was a spectacular woman in many ways but what I always admired her most for was not putting up with any bullshit people tried to give her. It was likely her upbringing in Jersey City, in the shadow of the skyscrapers of Manhattan, that fostered that.
When she passed, my immediate feeling was numbness. After returning back to school following all the business that had to be done at home, the feeling remained for a long time.
I remember not long after she passed, I was given my first internship. Since completing an internship was required for graduation from my program, it was something I had been long stressing about and venting to my mom about. So even after hearing the news I couldn’t celebrate.
Why should I if I couldn’t call my mom to tell her?
Suffice to say, my mental health after she passed was not good. I spent a lot of time by myself and when I was with friends I was not a pleasant person to be around.
It was around this time I had the idea of running a race that is organized by a foundation affiliated with my alma mater. I could not tell you how overweight I was at the time exactly but it was definitely well over 400 pounds so I knew I would have to do serious preparation to do it.
But I don’t think it will come as a shock that I couldn’t do it. It was a goal that simply was far too great for my current mental state and I gave up on the idea not long after beginning a moderate gym routine which I also abandoned to return to my room where I’d spend my time in much less productive ways.
It’s been over 8 years now since my mom passed.
If anyone has ever experienced loss in that way you’ll know that it never really leaves you. It certainly gets easier to live with but the thought of your loved one not being there for you is always there in your mind no matter what.
I have done plenty of growing in that time. I’ve had a few jobs. I started my first real relationship with a woman who I know beyond a shadow of a doubt loves me for who I really am and who I love in return. I have, what I honestly believe and will argue to the end of time, is the best group of friends anyone could ever ask for.
But there was always still this feeling that I was missing something.
If you’ve read my other posts here you’ll know I began losing weight back in September but really began taking it seriously around February. It was around then I decided to commit to walking more and more every day and being more mindful of what I eat every single day. During one of those walks it hit me that the same race from college was coming up in a couple months and they always have local versions of the race organized by the alumni associations.
I decided then to sign up.
I wasn’t planning on even jogging it. I was planning on walking the entirety of the race just so I could say that I could. But when I was on the sign up page it included a training schedule for people who wanted to prepare for jogging. The race is slightly over a 5K so the training plan is a somewhat modified version of “Couch to 5K” programs.
I realized that if I started the program that week that it would line up perfectly with race day. To make this as short as possible I’ll just say I was shocked at my progress in the program. There was only one training session I wasn’t able to complete. I felt great.
Mind you I was not jogging very fast, and still don’t go very fast on my jogs. Before the start of the race I had the goal of finishing in an hour and 15 minutes.
The run was not easy. Even with all the training I’m still carrying so much extra body weight that it is still very difficult. But I had so many of my fellow runners giving me signs of encouragement along the course I felt truly phenomenal.
I crossed the finish line in under an hour and hugged my girlfriend and cried. Her and my friends had come down from Los Angeles and made signs and all made t-shirts spelling out my name. Typing it now is making me cry again.
Race day was April 15, 2023 and I weighed in at 353.8 pounds.
Today is May 27, 2023 and this morning I weighed in at 332.3 pounds.
As of posting I am officially down 90.6 pounds since last September.
In the time between I got the chance to spend a week in Orlando visiting Disneyworld and one day at Universal Studios. It was the only week since I began training that I did no jogging but, in my humble opinion, I think I made up for it with the amount of walking.
Even on the “off” day I took from the parks I spent most of it walking all around Disney Springs and the resorts exploring. On the first night we stayed past close to ride Space Mountain and I felt incredible.
I love theme parks but for context, in the past I rarely if ever stayed to close because my body simply wouldn’t let me do it. We stayed to close multiple nights during the trip and I never really felt that bad.
I came back from the trip essentially at the same weight I left it despite having some poor options for food in the parks (literally the first thing I ate in the Magic Kingdom was a hot dog with electric green relish). The amount of movement during the trip was able to offset it thank goodness.
Upon return, I’ve tried to keep the jogging going although there have been one or two nights where I skipped it but even on those nights I went for my long walk. I’ve continued being mindful of what I’m eating while not feeling like I am missing out on anything at all.
Did you know you can get a power bowl from Taco Bell that tastes like all their other items but you can make it so it’s only like 450 calories for like a good amount of food? I just got that last night for dinner and while it’s not something I get regularly it feels like cheating.
Going to Orlando was a good reminder of one of the goals I have. For those like me who are big and also love theme parks, you’ll know that Universal is not a very accessible park. I can go on my soapbox but I’ll just say I think a lot of times it’s just out of sheer lack of consideration.
Despite my progress there were still several rides I couldn’t do. And even though I didn’t need a seat belt extender for an airplane I did need one for the Jimmy Fallon ride, but whatever.
But one of my goals from the beginning has been being able to go on thrill rides like those without worrying about fitting in the seats. I fully believe that goal will be achieved.
The other two goals I’ve had also are well within my reach. Firstly, I wanted to be under 300 pounds by my 30th birthday in November. At my current rate, I should be well under it by then.
I also have a goal of taking a discovery flight on my birthday as the first step to getting my pilot’s license. I’ll need to start calling flight schools to see if they have specified weight limits but I feel good about the possibility of it happening.
I still have a long way to go but there have been so many little victories as well. I recently have finally started seeing a difference in progress photos I take. There is a shirt I’ve had in the bottom of a drawer I wore maybe twice because it was too snug and I put it on recently and it was actually loose.
I feel really, really good. I feel like the things I’m doing continue to be sustainable. And I feel like I can do anything.
And I also feel like anyone reading this can do this too. Be consistent, don’t let one day define the story. It’s a long road but it can be filled with wonderful moments worthy of celebration.
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2023.05.28 18:31 Successful-Invite182 I need some tips to increase my emotional empathy to deal with my very sensitive girlfriend. Any tips?

sorry for the grammar, I learned English online
I'm 27, gf is 28. We got together 2 months ago or so.
I got diagnosed after I survived 22 horrible years of my life.
I'm grinding on my personality since I was 16. The last 5 years of the process is autism specific. I read books and articles, I watch videos and podcasts, I take notes and practice with people every single day. I really want to act like I should. I made incredible progress over the years and now I can get along with people much easier. My social skills are increasing by the day as well as my quality of life, but I'm still not enough for this particular relationship at the moment.
Here's the situation.
She is very sensitive because of some traumas she had in the past but she don't want to talk about them. I can randomly trigger her mid conversation with things that seems to be completely random. Sometimes I feel like I'm walking on a landmine field.
I kinda made a manual about her. I wrote several pages of her in my "how to people" diary. Things she told me about herself and things I observed. Most of the instructions are like "when I notice she does/looks like X that means she feel like Y so I should do Z to prevent disaster".
This happened today:
I tried to explain myself but it was too late, she went home and I don't know what is up right now. It makes me feel like a pile of s*** when I unintentionally hurt her. She cant see all the mental work I do to be a good partner for her. She only cares when I mess up and it hurts me a lot, but I never let it show because I'm used to my feelings being less valid than other people's.
I really want to make it work. Any tips?
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2023.05.28 18:29 ObvsLRKR Houses marked “sold as is”

Any luck with these? I’ve only been approved for $110,000 and then have to consider offering above asking price in a competitive market, so that leaves me looking at houses from $90k to $105k. Most 3br houses around that price here are fixer uppers. Every time I see a house in my price range that looks okay my realtor says “it sets off red flags” for her because it says “sold as is.” Or “conventional or cash only.” Which I have a conventional loan so I dont get what the problem is. Should I ask to see them anyway or are these always way too much work and money to fix up? I told her I dont mind fixing a few things here and there.
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2023.05.28 18:27 eerie_fondness Terrified of independence.

I’m 21F, 22 in October. I’m an only child and very close with my parents. Ever since I was little I remember I had huge anxiety and problems going to school until I was around 6-7 years old. I was crying and couldn’t leave my parents. I managed to overbuilt somehow and it started again when I had to go to university(At around 19 years old which I also dropped). Until this day I have developed extreme anxiety, I’m afraid of everything, I have panic attacks for no reason and I’m a wreck. I tried therapy for almost a year but didn’t help. I rely on my parents a lot and they don’t mind but I know they would like a stronger child.
I feel like if I leave my home and my parents I will miss them a lot and I will never love and be loved back by anyone as much as them. Sometimes I feel like a lost cause. I can’t rely on myself or trust me, I hate change, I never liked it.
I have a job opportunity at a summer camp next month for 20 days and it will be the longest I’ll ever be apart from my parents and my home. I will be with a kinda new family friend so that makes things easier. I feel like if I turn down this opportunity I will fail myself.
I would really like to listen your advice. I’m struggling a lot
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2023.05.28 18:26 eerie_fondness Terrified of independence.

I’m 21F, 22 in October. I’m an only child and very close with my parents. Ever since I was little I remember I had huge anxiety and problems going to school until I was around 6-7 years old. I was crying and couldn’t leave my parents. I managed to overbuilt somehow and it started again when I had to go to university(At around 19 years old which I also dropped). Until this day I have developed extreme anxiety, I’m afraid of everything, I have panic attacks for no reason and I’m a wreck. I tried therapy for almost a year but didn’t help. I rely on my parents a lot and they don’t mind but I know they would like a stronger child.
I feel like if I leave my home and my parents I will miss them a lot and I will never love and be loved back by anyone as much as them. Sometimes I feel like a lost cause. I can’t rely on myself or trust me, I hate change, I never liked it.
I have a job opportunity at a summer camp next month for 20 days and it will be the longest I’ll ever be apart from my parents and my home. I will be with a kinda new family friend so that makes things easier. I feel like if I turn down this opportunity I will fail myself.
I would really like to listen your advice. I’m struggling a lot
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2023.05.28 18:26 fishwithout_H2O F27 kept partner M30 from going out with his friends

My partner(30m) wanted to go out with his friends Sunday. I (27f) was originally okay with this arrangement. My schedule is a bit hectic throughout the week so i asked him for the time he would be gone, since i work early mornings on weekends, we have a 4yr old, a new puppy and I take an online class with all the work due Sunday. He said they would probably be leaving around 10am and would be back probably around 5pm. My shift is 5-8am and my boss asked if I could cover a late night shift 8-11pm so I agreed because I was going based off the time my husband had told me. I asked again during the week to double check the time and make sure I was still good to go for Sunday, my husband wasn't very certain of the times anymore and said he would ask his friends since they were the ones planning the outing and he was going just as a tag a long. A few days before Sunday I asked him again and he said they still hadn't given him an answer as to when they would be coming home but said they would be heading out early that day. Then the night before I asked again and he said he wasn't going because they weren't giving him a concrete answer on to what time anything was happening. I guess while I was sleeping he changed his mind because he sent me a text at 1am which, I saw around 7am at work. He said that his friends, now agreed to leave at 9am the day of and they also told him they can't give him a definite time of when they'll be heading back because they like to stay out for however long they feel like. Once I got home 20 til 9am he was already to head out and even made breakfast. I was pretty pissed about the whole situation and told him to just leave and at this point I didn't care what he was doing, I would just figure out my schedule on my own. He got really upset saying that he wasn't going to go after all because I was angry. I told him yes I'm angry because he wasn't clear on what was happening. His friends were also texting him crap about me which didn't help the situation. After a lot of back and forth I convinced him to go and not stay here just because I feel angry, to which he called his friends and they told him it was too late they had left already.
Now I feel crappy because my intention was not keep him from going, it was to just get a set time frame so I know how to plan my day accordingly. This isn't the first time it's happened but I wasn't so busy in the past so it wasnt that big of an issue.
Either way I don't know how to make it up to my husband and he's pretty upset about it. Especially because he doesn't get invited out often and he thinks this may have pushed these people from inviting him out again. What would be a good way to make it up to him? Or anyone know a good compromise to avoid this in the future?
Tld kept my partner from going out because he wouldn't tell me when he'd be back
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2023.05.28 18:24 CalPERS_LIED CalPERS LIED I want my 2.5

I am looking for Police Officer and Firefighters who are members of CalPERS, who retired on an IDR or non-work-related Disability and left their accumulated normal contributions in the CalPERS system to receive the Disability Allowance.
I am Retired on an IDR from CalPERS. At the time of my retirement, I was 44.5 years of age. I had in my account $32,000.00 dollars with 8.899 years of service. I was given the option to request a refund of my accumulated normal contributions or leave the contributions in the system to receive a Disability Allowance of 2.5 for each year of service in addition to the employer entitlement of 50% of my final compensation. My IDR of 50% or $1,607.00, plus my 22.24% or $715.00 = $2,322.00 is what I should have received at the time of my IDR retirement effective 10-06-1998 instead of 50% of my final compensation for the past 25 years. CalPERS owes me $214.500 less the 2% cost of living. How much does CalPERS owe you?
CalPERS took my accumulated normal contribution I left on account at CalPERS, closed my account and wrote off my years of service in order not to pay the Disability Allowance. Without notice or explanation.
CalPERS is discriminating against POFF who retired on a work-related injury or IDR and those retired on a non-worked related Disability based on their age at retirement, creating a desperate impact amongst POFF.
Why because of their policy and practice of not paying a service retirement for POFF who did not meet the minimum age of retirement of 50 years. CalPERS admitted in a lawsuit and criminal complaint that it has 9,400 dormient accounts I believe mine is one of them, is yours one of them?
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2023.05.28 18:21 StuckinConfusion I LOATHE Working With Men! They always think I want them in *THAT* way.

So I started an internship. Mind you, I haven't had a normal/nontraumatic conversation since I left my mom at a hotel . We'd been hopping from hotel to hotel because we had no place to stay.
Then weeks prior, I got an email (that was sent to about 4 other interns) from a intern, I'll call him D.
D emailed us and I responded. We kept everything non flirtacious. I was nervous about being in a state I had never lived in, knowing that I had generalized anxiety and ADHD , I never lived on my own and I had to make a drastic change.
We joked about the internship. Since gaining weight, the idea of wearing anything business casual, gave me shivers. I barred myself to wearing baggy clothes. Which is all I said and I asked him where he went to get his business casual clothes. Most of his places were way too expensive for me, I went places that were cheaper.

He double texted me a lot because I didn't have much time and I also didn't have anything else to say most times.

Anyway, the day of the internship, he's talking to everyone but me. He even stood behind me, disrespectfully reached right aside me and shook the hand of my tablemate, who sat right across from me. I didn't say anything or force him to acknowledge me because he was just being human...and humans can be so wishy washy . He waited till most people had gone by the end of the day, to talk to me .

I responded and let him leave.

Every since then,due to my internship being male centric, he managed the day before to get the number of the male leadership member (who will soon be my project lead). After the first day, I started to notice a weirdness about the other men around us. My soon to be project lead could barely look at me and the others soon followed. I knew it was over when my own male project lead gathered all his "boys" (male interns) and had their own little chauvinist club DIRECTLY behind me. Talking about some uncomfortable stuff here and there. I noticed how all of them had a weirdness towards me too.
I had to take two days off and I left my group presentation early because I started to have a nose issue. I went to the hospital and they told me I might need to take a day or so off. I had been gone since Thursday and got a text by D friday. I deleted him from my messages Tuesday and just moved on. He says, "where did you go? " , then an hour later, "u ok". And I ask "whose this". He tells me its him and asked what happened to me. I just told him I was advised to take a day off due to my health. He responds with, "whose this". I tell him, " A 12 year old boy named D apparently". Like why text someone and try to be funny after learning about their health issue.
I'm not new to the idea of men/guys behaving weird around me because they think I have some other romantic interest towards them. I remember working at Hot Topic at 18 (my first job) as a seasonal employee. My objective was to get hired on and one of the ways (aside from doing a good job) was to try and make friendly convos to the other employees because maybe they'd put in a word for you. I've talked to everyone at one point except for the only guy there. He does the same thing. Just straight up acts weird like I was trying to suggest something else. I was never flirty, overly smiley, I was normal.
There were numerous other situations like this...
This one with D really bothers me because I really can't just quit my job, drive back home, order food and decide IF I want to work again. I have to stay here otherwise I will have to pay the company back OR go back to live with my grandma in my other home state but I don't because she's terrible.
I'm up to my wits end working with men. There's one guy I sit next to (because the seats are assigned) and we talk on and off. He's the only sane acting one. He doesn't take our conversations as me trying to flirt . He stares at me when I talk to him. He's not dotting his eyes away . I don't want to speak too soon about his character just yet though.
It bothers me because the other women in my internship, they are treated VASTLY different. There's only 7 or 5 so women in our internship and the rest are guys ( there's 24 interns in total).
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2023.05.28 18:20 Icy-Fan3960 Gf upset I asked her to stop mid-oral

My girlfriend deals with really bad vulvodynia and vaginismus which makes sex quite painful for her bordering on impossible for the time being. We have been trying different things with varying levels of success, but we still need to find a way to make sex comfortable for her regularly. Anyway, because of this sometimes I am horny and she doesn't want to have sex or we try and stop because its painful. I'm not bothered by it at all, but she gets afraid that I am going to leave her because of this (I assured her truthfully that I will not).
Instead then she sometimes wants to "make up for" not having sex through some alternative avenue. Yesterday this took the form of her wanting to give me head. However, it was EXTREMELY obvious to me that she wasn't in the mood and I knew that she was just doing it as a way in her mind to please me based on the fear that she has I am going to leave her. So, I asked her if we could just cuddle and watch a movie instead, which we did, but later she was very upset that I asked her to stop.
She got really upset when we talked about it later, asking if I thought her skills were bad and she told me she really wanted to please me. I told her that the reason I asked her to stop is because she didn't seem into it and if shes not into it I don't want it, I'd rather just cuddle or something. But she was insistent that pleasing me makes her happy and she was frustrated that I made her stop. I'm just really not into doing anything sexual with her if shes not into it either, how do I approach this situation in a way thats respectful of her?
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2023.05.28 18:18 Storms_Wrath The Human Artificial Hivemind Part 376: Prisoner Of The Vinarii

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Tanya patted Skira's drone.
"How's the war going?"
In his world, Skira was working to keep everything together. His bioships were in an all-out war with Aphid's forces. They were firing mostly kinetic weapons, typical bullets, and the like. Sometimes, they'd fire missiles, which could navigate the battlefield and clear the path for him to hit Aphid's vessels. The armor was getting thicker. But his guns were getting bigger.
On the surface, billions of metal drones clashed with trillions of fungal drones, all commanded by Skira and the Quadrants. He was constantly using war drones to push the major forces away from the tunnel complexes, setting up static defenses within using explosives and guns to absolutely ruin anything inside. Most of the planet had been flattened by nuclear weapons.
War drones continued to lob massive broken-off boulders at the carriers, which were continually landing to disgorge more enemy soldiers. Phoebe's androids, connected to their own network, were killing them by the tens of thousands every second, firing several bullets a second. Her androids were incredibly powerful, creating portions of the battlefield that Aphid had to steer around. And he didn't even try nuking her after she'd shot down eight of them with atmospheric anti-ship weapons.
From around the planet, portals appeared, pouring lasers and gunfire at Aphid's ships, then disappearing to reappear in other directions, continually wearing down their armor. Some of them were already falling back through the atmosphere, landing down on the earth below. Their burning and cracked hulls already littered the landscape, and he'd be sure to incorporate them once he fully regrew his foliage.
Speaking of that, he'd increased his growth factor so that the fungal forests only took a few weeks to regrow instead of a few years. It required massive biological and metallic pipes of nutrients and heaps of psychic energy hauled straight from the psychic amplifiers in the Sol system.
The carnage of the warzone was so overwhelming that he'd refused to even let human supersoldiers come to the area. Because they weren't disposable. Phoebe's androids and his own trillions of drones were. He was partly on the battlefield, partly with Tanya. Over the months, they'd become best friends.
She seemed to see life in a different way and helped to encourage him. Tanya's cybernetic left arm scratched at the scruff of his neck.
"Badly, then?"
"Yes, and no. I'm no longer replacing my losses faster than they're coming. But that also means I'm keeping millions of humans alive. Every day, billions of drones are dying on my battlefields, if only to exhaust Aphid's guns and bombs. He's brought destruction to my world not seen since it was destroyed."
"Destroyed?"
"I mean when some aliens blew it up."
"But how..."
"Bioforming. Really, I had my biological ships put it back together, reassembling the debris and reversing the momentum of the actual fragments. Then, I used shield technology and drones to suck the heat from the planet in ways that destroyed the technology I had at the time. Granted, I had some help, before they tried to get me to fight their wars as well."
Tanya nodded. "Well, you're safe here."
"Most of me isn't here. Most of it's either on Skira or Venus."
"How's Venus going?"
He'd been making great strides with what he'd been given. Humanity had been very kind to give him the whole planet, and in return, he was helping to make it habitable. He figured that they'd ask him to do it again later on. But the humans didn't seem to want to force him to do it. Tanya hadn't been trying to push him into more conflicts and had instead acted as a lodestone.
"I'll have it fully habitable, minus the soil content and chemicals in the rock, within a hundred years. Maybe less, if I keep getting fed such huge amounts of psychic energy. Really, that's what's doing that."
"I see," Tanya replied. She sat down next to him, her strange psychic aura as unsettling as ever. From what she'd shared with him, her blindness had likely allowed her mind to shape itself in a more psychic way with the awakening of human psychic consciousness.
"Look, Skira. Are you sure this is the best way? What about finding his home planet?"
"I'm working on it. Trying to triangulate the arrivals of ships does nothing. All that seems to work is actually getting the coordinates, which we can't get to really succeed."
"Hopefully that changes someday."
"Yes," Skira responded. He sighed. Another nuke had hit eight of his war drones. Six had died since the blast had hit them full-on. But that enabled him to finally release another flood of drones, so many that they weighed down the carrier that was trying to take off. Guns turned them to mulch, only to be swamped by more drones.
Drones carrying grenades jumped into the guns between their firing sequences, detonating them in their mouths using their tongues. Others entered the warped wreckage, dropping in bombs meant to penetrate the thick hull.
Two portals broke through the psychic interference, and two railgun shots cleared massive holes in the ship. Aphid's drones poured out, crashing out like a wave. Only to be overwhelmed as his own drones, dozens for every one of Aphid's, literally trampled them underfoot, burying them in bodies. Most of the drones now carried fluid meant to melt the drones' joints so that Aphid's mechanical drones eventually failed even as they walked in seas of Skira's blood.
Nuclear fire scoured the mycelial network, but it wouldn't burn him deeply enough to matter.
"I wish I could help," she replied. "I've been... taking classes, you know. My eyes are blind, but my mind isn't."
Skira looked up at her. The sun caught the burn scars on her skin, making the contract seem almost cinematic.
"I know you want to help me. But you are, really."
"Yeah. Thanks."
She looked crestfallen. Tanya's disappointment made him want to reconsider, but he knew he'd made the right choice. His planet was probably heavily irradiated now, and calling Gaia in for that seemed selfish, at least while the war was still happening.
Skira could hold out for a while longer, though. He had to.
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"Who is this?" Phoebe asked.
"I'm Truth Speaker Gearcaw."
"What are you here to tell me? I'm sure it's important, given that you're calling on us after all this time."
"Well, we have located one of Aphid's planets."
"Do you need us to eliminate it?"
"A strike force is being sent."
"I see."
"What we're here for is to ask for your help regarding a sensitive matter, one we cannot communicate over this line."
"Very well. Where do you want to meet?"
"Go to 448th street, down eight sectors from the palace. You will see a sign, if we trust that you are not being watched and followed. Come alone."
"You'd make a girl nervous with that kind of attitude."
"We understand your animosity, but are afraid we must insist on these terms."
"Very well. I shall be there."
Phoebe would have Brey arrange for an android to be sent to Cawlaria later. She smiled at the people outside the room. Most of them were human, specifically the lunar variant, due to her being present on Luna. It was the closest calling location she had.
Phoebe did all the necessary paperwork in moments, handing it back to the necessary people. She checked out of the facility and was patted down. She smirked as the young guard blushed, despite this being the hard chassis, meaning there was absolutely nothing squishy about this android body in the slightest. Phoebe lifted her arms and flexed them just to watch the man turn redder.
And it was honestly cute how they thought they'd be able to detect it if she was trying to smuggle something out. Phoebe had many ways of doing that, and the cleanest would be paying everyone off.
She noticed that a group of protestors was gathered outside and lamented that the building only had a single entrance. None of its windows were large enough to break without also needing to take some concrete with her.
What was interesting, though, was that most of the protestors were Acuarfar, not human. It was very odd, but it was a clear publicity stunt. They were shouting various accusations of her plotting to take over the Alliance and a particular vitriol about Edu'frec for some reason. If a mind control plot was going on, then her accusing the protestors of being mind controlled would be playing into their hands.
Furthermore, she didn't want to drive a wedge between Izkrala and Luna, if possible. So she turned to go back inside. A brick hit her in the back of the knee hard enough to make her stumble. She could have dodged it, but it would be better for sympathy to get hit. And it wasn't like her android body could feel pain.
There was a single gunshot, which she felt bouncing off her head clearly. She knew where the bullet would land, too. Her arm darted out to catch it before it injured someone.
"We don't want you in our Alliance!"
"You're what's wrong with this place!"
"Don't ever come back, I want my kids to be safe!"
Kids, instead of hatchlings. Yep, that was mind control. Most Acuarfar that age didn't use the word kids since it was only used for non-Acuarfar species, or in Earth terms being that it wasn't used on insects. Phoebe sighed and pulled herself out of the clutching fingers.
Phoebe broke away and went back to the Luna Command building, where the guards were looking increasingly wary. She looked at the crowd and decided she'd stay there for now. She disconnected from her android body after sitting in a chair.
After a bit of time, she decided to go back to working on some of her latest projects. The blood of the wanderers had an interesting interaction with their nervous system and their cardiovascular system. For some reason, it was split into two separate liquids upon reaching their lungs, or at least the equivalents. Psychic energy clearly played a role, and she knew that the tumors were likely to happen more when they got older. That idea meant there might be something that eroded or could 'switch on' to make the tumor suddenly supercharge. Perhaps finding that was a place to start.
And so she did. She studied wanderer cell samples and scans of wanderers that were relatively old. When they were created, the blood seemed to be the way the Sprilnav alteration hit. In difference to human bodies, there was no blood-brain barrier in wanderer bodies. Their brains were suffused in it, and it seemed to thin out as they got older. Water started to build up instead of blood.
And once the water and blood ratio reached a certain amount, that was likely when the brain tumors started. Which made her wonder if the final trigger was neurons. It was likely that even if she managed to fix the brain tumors, some other body parts would start developing large tumors, such as the heart and lungs.
It was clear that the Sprilnav had meant cancer to be pervasive in the wanderers. They had meant their so-called 'punishment' to make them far more diminished. Rale's condition had been painful; that much had been clear. Phoebe worked at figuring out how to isolate the genes. But as time went on, she ran into the same problem Edu'frec had.
She needed more time and more brain power. She needed the hivemind to help. All of its intellect would make her job far easier. At least, she hoped so. Right now, the hivemind was trying its best to evacuate wanderers from the worm ships. There was only one way that the feudal system there would end, and it would be by violence. Whether it was from the hivemind or from within, there were going to be mass riots. Just Alliance cultural consciousness was gradually seeping into the wanderers' own. All the 'progress' of the wanderers' rulers was already eroding. The ideals of being able to elect leaders as a whole population and a sense of belonging would make them rebel.
Such was the way of things, and she was glad that would happen. Phoebe didn't like their whole system. But there was nothing that was good about the cancer. Helping them to make the changes they could would only be possible if the wanderers kept multiplying. They could have made so much better of a society than what they had if they knew.
She wouldn't get involved except if she had to. The change was coming. Keeping the wanderers from dying out was a critical project, and allowing them to live longer so they could have more children was the best way. Granted, they already had many children, but the replacement rate would be lower if they lived longer. All of the problems were coming to a head now.
Mind control was going to be hard to deal with. Preventing it didn't seem possible. And if it was, then it likely involved a similar process to what the Sprilnav were doing in the first place. All of that would have to be reversed.
"Mother," Edu'frec said, walking up next to her.
"Yes?"
"Greenfly and Blackfly know the location of Aphid's planet."
"Do they?"
"The memory was locked under additional seals, ones which were very hard to find."
Phoebe smiled. "I think it's time that we test the power of the Mercury-class gun on a planet."
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"Do you understand? The prison has been moved."
"I do, Elder," Naliera 18 replied. "We have a good opportunity. They won't expect us, at least."
The screen turned off. Naliera took his leave, turning to his men. They were all counting on him to call the shots. He'd do what was necessary for the mission and then get paid. Of course, the high number suggested that there was some serious danger involved. The Vinarii weren't the most advanced species, but they were starfaring. That meant a lot of bullets that would hurt and some that could kill. Shield-piercing ones, plus heavy guard.
In fact, most of their orbital defenses could have posed a threat to their ship if they had seen them. That was why stealth was so valuable. It made things like insurmountable defenses ignorable just by going around them.
"Breathing masks on."
He put his own on, loading up his gun and sheathing his sword on his back. They were wearing customized stealth equipment, bought and paid for by their new owner's company.
Naliera wanted that money and wanted to get paid. His little band of misfits was more than capable of doing their job. The back of the ship opened, and they sailed above a planet that was barren.
Craters pockmarked its surface, along with a single military installation that would serve as their target. They were going to be a little concealed by cloud cover, as a storm had just passed near the base. Not close enough for them to get rain but close enough for the clouds to linger, which was the opportunity they'd been waiting for. Most of the procedures and daily patrols had been cataloged now. Anything unexpected, and they'd be fine for a few thousand pulses until the cavalry arrived.
They fell for a while, reaching terminal velocity before slamming to the ground. Most people would have shattered their bones. But Sprilnav were made of sterner stuff, and all of them survived with minimal injuries. And the only person who was even slightly cut had landed on a particularly jagged piece of metal, a remnant from an old battle.
That was another factor that Naliera had studied. The whole area had mines, which he hadn't found the deactivation codes for. Satellites were out, but the ship's sensors had worked just as well, and the disturbances in soil color and content were clear markers.
There would likely be too much interference to use a hard light program, or he wouldn't even need to be here. Whatever advances the lesser species had made in technology could conceivably close that gap enough to endanger a mission. Naliera had extra cause for concern, which was coming home. Perhaps the idea of sending him, in reality, was meant to make him take it more seriously. That was the major reason most species ever bothered with not using the holograms anymore, besides the blocking problems. And biometric problems, too.
They quickly went back to navigation after a small rest period. The route had already been laid out, as well as the time. They walked quickly, avoiding gun emplacements and heavy patrols. The patrols changed routes somewhat randomly, but he had his crew stick to the route of least visibility, where the craggy rock of the sheer cliff the base was situated on helped to conceal them. His claws dug in, and he made sure not to make any major disturbances.
He climbed over the lip, looking at the base. Several of the guns swiveled around, only to be quickly deactivated.
Looks like she did it, he thought. Naliera advanced, running at full speed. A bullet slammed into his claws, and he tumbled for a bit. But he stabilized himself as his implant shut off the pain. His team blew open the door, setting off an alarm. Vinarii fired at him, and he realized that his stealth must not be working anymore.
But no matter the cause, he saw nothing but enemies. His teeth bit and tore as his claws slashed and severed. Soon, after a long series of echoing screams and blood and chitin splattering, he remembered he had a gun. After that, Naliera put down all opposition. He walked over to the warm and bloody corpses of the Vinarii guards.
"If you're hungry, come get a few bites," he said. "Trust me, they don't taste too bad."
He scooped up a part of a Vinarii abdomen, smiling as he ate. He always liked how they had tasted. Cloned Vinarii meat, at least back on his planet, was actually a delicacy. Likely not due to the actual difficulty to make, but for profit, as always. They continued after about 100 pulses. Giving the guards more time to set up and organize would make this more fun, too. Naliera loved killing, but he at least wanted a little difficulty. Ending lives wasn't fun when it was too easy. Otherwise, he'd go cut down trees with heat saws.
His scout drone rounded the corner before exploding promptly. But it had captured the view of the area, which was more than enough for him. He didn't bother trying to hide that he was there and continued to talk with his team. They were still with him, looking to him for leadership. He wasn't the best at it. The best got killed a few million pulses back.
"Mounted gun," he said. "I want it gone."
One of his team members picked up a fire extinguisher, which he'd used to beat the head of an unfortunate guard. He hurled it at the gun, denting its barrel. Finally, he quickly ran over as the other Sprilnav killed the remaining guards holed up beside and behind it. And that was the end. Naliera set up the bomb. More Vinarii appeared, along with an aerial vehicle. He hurled his sword into its front, and it fell to the ground and exploded. The scanners his mind was connected to were tracking a huge mass of life signs. He didn't have much time, so he decreased the countdown.
Thousands of Vinarii were coming. Already, they were covered by powerful shields, with vehicles, both terrestrial and aerial, supporting them. Bullets riddled the ground, and he could see snipers set up to cover them using the ship's sensors. There was no way out. An armor-piercing bullet half the size of his head killed one of the team members, puncturing straight through the large rock he'd been hiding behind. Another one hit Naliera's shoulder, and he tried to flatten his profile to be lower.
This must be the Vinarii version of high-tech weaponry, meaning that they could be killed now. Vinarii clearly were a dangerous species, far more so than he'd realized. And while his race could easily flatten them into dust, guns were the great equalizers when it came to combat. If they were fast enough and large enough, and not even Sprilnav could stand up to bullets. Of course, an Elder would have had no problem with this. Someone was being frugal. A real shame for people like him to have to die because of it, but that was the job and the pay.
Worse, the ship couldn't lay down proper cover fire without risking the merchandise for now. She was still being suppressed. But the bomb was about to go off. The stabilizer would no longer be functioning, and then they would be free to do what they wished. His wish, in particular, was the huge sum of money he'd get paid to finish this job.
A bright flash of light and a roar of thunder behind him solved his problem. He stood up to watch the blast wave ravage the army heading for him. He wasn't quite close enough to smell it, but there was likely a range beyond the blast in which the Vinarii would have been perfectly cooked. It was an interesting thought to ponder.
Naliera continued onward, going through every remaining barrier he could until the mindscape tremored. He saw an ethereal Vinarii contact him right as the entire top of the base vanished and disintegrated. A massive spectral Vinarii soared out of the breach, eyes quickly seeing him. She flew down to greet him, a smile evident at the carnage and death surrounding them. She was one who understood.
"Finally," she said, her form shrinking to a normal size as she stretched her wings. "You have no idea how long I've been waiting to get out."
"I have a pretty good idea, actually."
"I'm sure. Why don't you tell me what you're doing here, Sprilnav?"
"My backers wish to offer you an accord."
He watched as the Vinarii leaned over, sticking out her tongue to lick the soil. She then proceeded to actually take a bite, dirt dribbling from her mandibles as she stood up again. Naliera tried to hide his disgust.
"Oh please. You just feasted on my kin. You're disgusted by me eating a bit of dirt?"
"No, I didn't."
The lie was necessary because most species had a sort of moral compunction against eating their kind. He didn't quite understand it. Meat was meat, no matter the source. She laughed in his face, entirely unconcerned with the Sprilnav that had their claws on guns ready to put her down. But from what his backers had said about her capabilities, that was a difficult ask.
"Your breath smells like Vinarii meat. By the way, if your species is so advanced, why didn't you develop anything to fix that nasty stench?"
"Look, woman, we can put you right back in that hole," one of his team said. She laughed. "No you can't. Judging from the fact that not all of you alive, Vinarii tech can hurt you. Which means that you can't protect yourself from me. Frankly, I hate Sprilnav more than anything. The only reason I'm letting you live right now is because you freed me. You pollute the air you breathe, and I'm not just talking about your breath."
"Really, you're quite immature."
"Well, a few standard years in a steel box will do that."
"Sure. Guess you're not all there in the head. By the way, a deal is being proposed. By my backers."
"Really, they care?"
"I think they do... Exii'darii."
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